A letter from Jul 23, 2025

Dear FutureMe, hey this is freshly 17 year old you I've never written a letter so far out but I feel suddenly motivated to do so, hopefully my email is active till then, and this site is still up, I might make a paper copy of this just because. i have tons of work to do but I'm choosing to do this instead much to nobodies surprise, very therapeutic i must say obviously I wondered where we are at in life, hopefully not dead. I'm sure you still tight with jennie but has she received christ yet? if not that is kinda crazy but how have spiritual conversations gone with her so far... jennie is the one person that I am sure only ***** will do us apart. feels kinda stupid asking about sammy here assuming you are probably in a relationship 10x stronger and better, but I'm just curious how have things developed?? in four days it'll be a month since we broke-up (with no chance of reconciliation bc ya girl has standardssss) so everythings relatively new but i wonder who did he end up with (pure curiosity i swear) he's dropping a music vid/album/song of sorts soon and everytime i see his story i get the ick so bad😭 you should see the way my face scrunches up in disgust. makes me think maybe the breakup was inevitable i also wonder who we are with now... tell me about him n about growing in love with him is he similar to dad? is he a nerd? habesha? funny? was it unexpected? friends to lovers? enemies to lovers? did we actually have a crush on him? how did he ask me out... propose... HOW WAS OUR WEDDING OMG WAS IT LIKE OUR PINTEREST BOARD? IT BETTER HAVE BEEN PAL i hope you got to add all the fun quirky stuff we saved, and i hope he is fun and quirky too. and i hope when he proposed we got to incoperate an inside joke into it like how i was imaging sam to say "di u" and i say "di me" if not its cool, diff guy diff relationship yk i hope you didn't have to go through a second heartbreak, if so was it something we did (not to sound vain but i don't think so it was prolly him right...) did it hurt as much? how long did it take to get over it and what did we do? DID WE EVER GET CHEATED ON⁉️⁉️omg if we did that would be so embarrassing lmao and if you are not girl what happened like hello you are **** near 30 😭 OMG DO WE HAVE KID ⁉️⁉️⁉️is he a good father 🤔 how was pregnancy ewwwww I'm scared of that joint frl... what was the worst symptom and what do we miss about it. im sure yk but im just so scared of my skin getting ruined and saggy ***** and big nose and swollen everything AND IF WE DID HE BATTER HAVE TREATED YOU LIKE A QUEEN if i did the math correctly we should be in our senior year of medical school hopefully our dream of being dr.pimple popper hasn't died !! i feel so relieved and exited that i have found a career I'm actually down to do and will me me dat schmonayyyyy 😭😭😭 although i highly doubt it... do we still talk to anyone from highschool? and when did the mandem gc die ☹️ i think if we do it would be shalom - he said he'd better be best man at me and sams wedding, which obv isn't happening but i hope he got to attend ours! ok now to the sad stuff like if grands die yet and how did it happen... or any ***** for that matter if it has happened yet I'm sending 10 year old Condolences from 2025 I wonder what is your biggest regret in life so far, I'm sure after all this time we might have a few Please tell me you have actually experienced life Like bunjee jumping (that looks painful tbh, prolly hurt your back or neck frl) SKY DIVING ⁉️⁉️ Solo vacations?!!? I'm thinking Switzerland, one if the countries like Azerbaijan or sum, Argentina js bc i liked the name as a kid lol, Jamaica??!! Omg i hope I we got to experience a girl trip like jessie did when she was in college, hopefuly that was with Jennie too If you haven't done something of the sorts girl what are we doing like hello you supposed to be filled with experiences to pour into other people Also how is my girl doing in life? Is her career as music centered as it seems it might be rn? Has she fallen in love? She deserves someone that will love her inside and out and showers her with love i pray the best for her allways Is she actually ***? I belive the only thing that would seperate us would be how she takes politics and religion cause I know we chill when it comes to that stuff but she can be strong random but i hope you e are real articulate with big cool words and you still like history And is a big dork about it lol I like that little niche Yooo wbat happend to the people at church? I feel like we are kinda going through a dry patch rn did the church die ⁉️ also we barely speak to liddia anymore idk why she being so dry but I hope we still cool by then and Christina too! Omg did she get to marry barkot ⁉️ i pray the best for them... And who did Jessie end up with ?! I fear leul isnt gonna work out bc of the religion thing but if they keep up the Bible studies they defo have a chance bc they are cuutteee together and i like him too. also pls tell me you have pearly white teeth lmao do you have any insecurites? i hope our smile lines got some kind of solution... and when did i finally acheive clear skin? ive been doing wtv atp. rn ive given up been fighting with this since i was 14 irdc no mo. at least tell me my back isnt as ugly. also do we still like the same things AND OMG HOW IS OUR AESTHETIC AND HOUSE AND STUFF ??!! is it as fun as my room? and we bettter be filled to the brim with plants of all sorts. i like mango mochi, mango everything... the color deep sultry red and forest green, crafting things and doodling cool stuff, love my nails burgundy red i tapping a lil into my emo aesthetic and i still feel like showing my tum in outfits is too much. i like history and mr. fronkel just did the waltz with zach today in class, what a core memory am i right. also we are in trig in precalc rn and i like it it makes sense. i like funky designs like polka dots and stripes and animal print (specificaly zebra). i love jewerly and old cars and bags. i like turquise jewerly too, just havent been able to get my hands on some just yet. love the flavor lemon lime too. do i have something dum dum on my walls? i dont think so but hey its pretty cool and for some reason i feel like the things i like wont change that much until then. i just now you not finna be basic and boringggg OMG HOW IS MY EDYPOOO omg our baby girl is 17 now she is all grown up too. maybe imma show her this letter that would be funny. does she still wanna be a game developer? is her amharniyha dissapointing? how lax are mom and dad now? i dont think they will be that lax but ya never know.... shes my first child frl i have a different kind of strong love just for her. i bet she is so pretty and cool, i should go on a girls trip with her too. just me and her on vacay would be so sickkkkk and totally rad. poor her has grandparents for siblings lmao 😭😭 how much have ma and pa really aged? is edu basic wit her style? and how decked is her room compared to mine lol. i cant wait to spoil her. she'll forever be my lil baby. how did her pre-teen/eary teen years go? i hope not as horrible as mine lol. she better be an academic weapon and i wonder how her art has developed im sure its amazing i hope it hasnt died bc i just wanna add and add to my art wall in my room OMG HAS MY ROOM DIED TOO ⁉️⁉️ I SWEAR NOBODY BETTER MESS WITH IT AS LONG AS THAT HOUSE IS STANDING also with ben what big ole grand things has he accomplished? i love that guy sm he gets me on a level nobody else ever can that is the defi of my twin flame frl. has his lil silly goofy spark died? OMG AM I AN AUNT⁉️⁉️it might be kinda early for him so i doubt that but omg watching him be a father and husband is gonna be the most wholesome thing ever...i hope he is still silly and that she matches his vibe frl. how is his soccer career going !!!! i have no clue what his major is but it seems he wanan do business and finance??? idrk about that but hey i wonder if dads sense of humor is the same and how ma and pa's relationship has developed so far. just a couple years until its just them in the house... thats gonna suck for them idk what they finna do us kids are like their buffer from eachother how did the computer im using now die ☹️☹️ my first computer babyyyy also i wonder what big new social media app there is? idk if i see anything exeeding tiktok i pray we are happy with where we are in life and that we are close to slicing and dicing niggas in a non-lifethreatening way just like Dr. Lee 😊😊 omg its march first today i feel scared and nervous. time to look into those thingys sammy sent me but i been working on this jawn since yesterday or the day before idr remember. anyways were about 200 words away from 2000 words but idk what else to say so oh well! doesnt really matter anyways lols. if i have anything else to add ill just send another letter doesnt all have to be on here anyway. idk why im wrighting my every thought but wtv thats me! oh also rn im designign the cross design on old dingy t-shirts before sending it to sam for my last act of love/parting gift/nail in the coffin of our breakup. gotta say im kinda dissapointed he didnt get me nothing for our 17th especially considering he told me he'll love me "always and forever" and that we broke up on good terms just two weeks ago. ig i gotta stop expecting niggas to be thinking as thoughtful as me. im so glad i went no contact though cause that'll stick it to him lols. anyways this is enough yap now im 100 words away wtv tho I love you so much pookalicous and i hope your as cool and awsome and rad as i imagine you to be. mwahhh 💋💋💋