A letter from Jul 17, 2025

Dear FutureMe, a lot to say. I'm thinking of writing a book where I compile all of my writings and my journey of growth as a person. And for the next six months i have so much to say. You have come so unbelievably far in terms of healing. You have come to terms with so much grief, overcome so much pain, and you're healing because things that would affect you much more, do so less now. You're still not fully healed but holy god you've done things you shivered at the idea of even thinking about. You have friends, GOOD friends you trust and have fun with. You were so ashamed of ever calling people over to your house but you did!! You were ashamed of your parents but you called your friends over anyway. You were ashamed of your life, your past, but you talked about it and were accepted anyway. You thought you were unlovable and disgusting but you were loved anyway. You thought you weren't good enough ever in any sense, but you're the most knowledgeable in the room, you have the most creative ideas, you're the most productive, hardworking, you get great grades, you're pretty and constantly get complimented on your personality, humor, looks, vibe, and fashion. You also earn your money, buy yourself whatever you want! Girl what have you NOT got??? And you worked for all of this!! You worked to be a certain person that you weren't because life gave you financial scarcity, a dysfunctional household, and nowhere to belong, and it took a lot of pain and growth but you're HERE and you're amazing. So don't ever think you're not enough just because healing is taking time. Love waits and it will wait for you too heal. And you WILL figure that out too. It will be hard but since when was playing easy your thing?