A letter from Jul 14, 2025

Dear FutureMe, you did it. you stuck it out and you kept your word to yourself. did it take years? yes. was it painful? yes. was it hard as ****? also yes. HOWEVER not a single moment did you give up on yourself and for that i will forever be grateful to you. the version of me that's typing this, i'm sure will be different from the one reading it. in a different place, in a different tax bracket, in a different mindset, a different frequency. you'll be solid wherever you are because what you're doing now, what you've always done, is laying the foundation for it. right now i just opened my etsy shop, it's july 14, i opened it on the 10th. in the 7th hour of a capricorn full moon in my 7th house lol. so im really praying all of this pent up hunger for independence pays off. i know it will. im selling digital journals because it's the only thing keeping me sane, happy, and focused while the foundation i have built crumbles under this raggedy *** system. i will prevail and i will be fine, i always am, i know i am. this time feels different though, this time feels like a reward rather than another lesson to learn. this feels like a chance to apply what i've learned over the past few years. the plan is to use the money i make to pay my rent and to apply for school... i no longer have the same relationship with money as you can see. im doing the same thing i would've done years ago without a job, this time with structure and with intention. this time im using money and not getting used by it. this time im claiming my place as a sovereign individual and not letting anyone or anything get in my way. im sending this 6 months from now rather than 1 year because time has been so ******* crazy and im sure a lot is about to change between now and then. im not sure what and im not sure how, but im sure i trust myself to be okay. so the plan is to go back to school to finish my degree in psychology, and then go to law school and possible get my new york or chicago bar. i was considering going to the uk to become a un lawyer, and that's still on the table, anything can happen between now and then so i'm open to seeing what all is out there. can you believe it? full circle 5 years later, you're going back to school except you know exactly what you're going for and exactly what you want out of it. you already know you want to stay in panther hill, unless you somehow get a car then you can live somewhere cute off campus. you already know ow many credits you need and you know how fast 2.5 years can go by, you might as well pour them into the most important asset you have, your mind and soul. you're probably still single and avoiding teen pregnancy and im happy you haven't lost your **** mind lmao. you're focused on the right things this time around, you have a clear goal in mind and you are on the correct path. i honestly have no idea what you could be doing right now, but i hope you are having a good day. i hope you laughed a lot. i hope you saw a yellow butterfly and smiled and the reminder of what you made it through. the times when all you were praying for was peace and independence no matter how you got it. and now you do. to tell you the truth i have no idea whats coming, and im scared as ****, and i feel like im going crazy but i know i cant possibly be... surely someone would have snapped me out of this a while ago... what i do know is this time i didnt look for someone to come save me i didn't even consider it because it's no longer an option for me and hasn't been for a while. i know that even if there were options for someone to come and save me, i wouldn't want them. i would still bet on myself until the very end. i would still go through hell and high water for you, because who else is going to do it? i just heard an engine roar when i typed that. period. everything im building is for you. every single tear i shed is for your joy. every lesson i learned. every failed business venture. every L i took behind men, behind family, behind friends or just being associated with the wrong people was for your safety and discernment today. every time i went hungry to pay my rent on time was for you. every time i got up in the morning and walked my *** to that job from 7:45-5:15 and didn't quit even when i wanted to was for you. for your comfort, for your joy, for your heart. and i'd do it all again, and i'd fight 1000 people, over and over and over again for you to be free and enjoy your life in the way that you choose. i love you and i appreciate you for every phase, every detour in the journey, every time you chose to see the brighter side, to keep hoping, to keep trying. i will never forget the ways you lifted me up from what i thought to be rock bottom and showed me there was more, and even better than that, there was meaning, there was depth, there was history for your future lineage that they will feel even when you are dead and gone. thank you for your relentless spirit and your childlike wonder and innocence that has kept you safe. thank you for not believing them when they tried to change your mind about who you are. thank you for staying down for the ******* come up ***** you deserve the world and i know right now you're sitting pretty tasting the fruits of your labor. thankyou for always saying **** the noise and following the beat of your own drum. thank you for being open. thank you for being real. thank you for being you. i owe you everything, and that's why i'm on this mission now. to make sure you have it, and with ease. your life will be beautiful, plentiful, rich, and lived. not a single moment wasted, not a single regret. keep making me proud. 1:29pm