A letter from Jul 14, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Its currently summer and it's probably the best summer I've ever had. I have a great group of friends who go to Maurs most days and I'm really happy because I have my new friends and my original friends which gives me options, especially Ryan Young who I was surprised I got so close to. I miss the Salamanca trip tbh bc life was great then but I'm really enjoying my summer. These earbuds my dad got me might be the best thing I've ever received. Me and Aoibhe broke up and at the start I was a bit all over the place but I'm actually do much happier now. I didn't deserve what happened but she didn't deserve me as a whole. I bounced back stronger and I have no intention of going near any girls for the time being because I wanna enjoy life 😭. Leeds have been promoted to the Premier League after winning the Champ on 100 pts. We've made 4 signings but they've been defensive signings and I'm struggling to see how we stay up if we don't start splashing the cash. I'm excited for the season regardless especially because I'll be able to go see a Leeds game when we're in the prem (hopefully Man Utd). I might end up watching the Everton game w Lukas because Dad said we might not get over for the first game this year because he's an unemployed bum. for now. I think he's close to a well paying job tho. Yesterday I had a great day w youngsey jus me and him. we went to maurs and shops and we seen nicole otw back. it was funny. lately life has been rlly peaceful and I'm finally being able to just enjoy the peace and being by myself. but I'm far from alone. This summer I've really started getting into story games like Detroit: Become Human and Until Dawn. Heavy Rain was included w Detroit but I got spoiled on tt so idk if I'm too bothered anymore it's ps3 game as well. I've also listened to a lot Kanye I went thru his albums and I think I have like 8 or 9 of his songs which is weird because I have loads of random songs. Frank Sinatra, 2Pac, Milky Chance. Random. This whole thing is kinda just me waffling about my life right now but it's going really well. No girls (even tho I kinda like Molly but I wouldn't try pursue that) and Freedom. It will be near Christmas by the time I'm getting this which is crazy to think abt. I hope my life is exactly the same in all honesty because I like how things are. Except for 1 thing. I hope I've made a proper continuous effort to run from lust. I've been struggling lately but I know I have it in my because I've done it before. I can do this. I've been a very bad Christian bc I sin constantly and knowingly and don't repent. When judgment day arrives I won't have anywhere to hide. Hormones aren't an excuse. I'm not blaming this but the ***** of Grandad derailed me for a while. Especially because I was doing so well with exercising. I'm doing different exercise now because I'm getting loads of cardio but I'm eating terribly but at least I'm happy and at peace. I do miss the old Aoibhe before she switched up on me but I fear that she's gone and you couldn't pay me anything to interact with her again. I don't resent her but she lost all respect when she did what she did. I'm not holding it against her though. Next month is August. Probably my favourite month of the year. My birthday is coming. The football season starts. I'm going to Leeds vs AC Milan which is so cool because 1 it's in the Aviva and 2 it's AC Milan, their gonna be so good to see live. School is starting back and I'm going into JC year which I'm not really sweating over. I just have to do more than the bare minimum. My brain alone won't cut it anymore but most things I've seen say it's just a slightly harder summer exam. I'd never say this but I actually don't mind the first 2 weeks of school. Seeing people again after summer is kinda cool tbh. After that though it gets a bit long. Like I was really burnt out after the last 3 or 4 weeks of 2nd year. I just hope I can manage the work load. Pre season starts soon and I've never been so excited for a football season. I have a high chance of starting ever game and I'm guaranteed a center midfield spot. I'm curious to see how I can perform over the course of a season in that role seeing as I've never played more than 3 game in a row there. My dad's expecting 10 goals 10 assists which would be phenomenal. I just want to play well but I know I can be good with both sides of my game, defensively and going forward. I can score goals if I get the chances. I don't think I'm good enough defensively to play center back either which is why cm is perfect for me because I'm not great at anything I'm just good at everything and my legs are only getting longer. Jayden has just texted me saying he's going to Glebe North after his holiday. Apparently it's 90% confirmed but he's said this before. The Last time he didn't even go to the trial so I take what he says with a pinch of salt usually. I just want to perform to the level of that skerries match and keep consistency. with that I'll be happy. A league and a medal would be nice too 😉. I hope everything's well with the family and I hope there's no girls close to the picture nevermind in it. Don't let urself get sucked in again. and if your already there just keep your cards close to your chest. please. I like my own company but it took me a while to enjoy being alone. I may be alone sometimes but I'm far from lonely.