A letter from Jun 24, 2025

Dear FutureMe, hello. as of today, I am 14 years old. I am happy, because maybe I am closer to my first kiss. I already had a boyfriend, I guess. well. I don't know exactly if Carlos counts. we did tell each other that we like each other, and held hands or whatever. we only held hands for like a minute or two. nobody knows about that. not even gabika. we always go for walks and swimming and it's always fun, even if I don't like him anymore like that. I know he likes me like that, and I still text him because I'm lonely. I have to text someone. I can't be stuck with my family all day. like yeah they can be good but Carlos is just fun to talk to. I need him. and I'm selfish. letting him get the wrong message that I like him so he continues to like me and talk to me. wow I sound so narcissistic. maybe I am. so far it's 9:27am and Fan and Omar have remembered that it's my birthday and sent me a happy birthday message. Carlos still hasn't. I wonder if he even remembers.... maybe he's still sleeping. idk. omg Mariam just texted me happy birthday! I'm so happy cause she's a real best friend. like I've never had a real best friend just for me. I've always been a third wheel in a triangle friendship. they've always known each other longer, liked each other better, or whatever. My friends that I have in Egypt are: Mariam obviously, Marissa, Jenna, Omar. that's one friend group and there's Malak too who's my friend. I hope she's in some of my classes. but I hope Mariam is in more of my classes cause I'm not alone and we'll laugh and have fun the whole time. and I hope Omar's in my classes. I really lovely want him in my classes cause I love having a bbf. (boy best friend). Andddddd finally Carlos is my friend. we might have been more (ew) but I hope he'll be my friend next year and I hope we'll still text. cause I honestly need a boy to text. with girls it's not the same. Am I weird and do I have a problem? yes. but still. Am I a pick me? probably. is it my fault? maybe. I just finished the SHATTER ME series and OMG AARON. KENJI. AHHHHGHGHGGGGHGGhhhg Is this love?? it's my favourite series everrr. I thought Powerless was the best, and yes, KAI OMG YOU AND YOUR PRETTY WORDS. BUT AARON>> And KENJI IS SUCH A GREEN FLAG. NO HES AN ENTIRE GREEN FOREST. I don't know what to read next but I have some ideas. Booktube and all. the Maze Runner is on my tbr. Ok it is now June 25. As presents I got the white Coral reef shirt, the jean shorts that I love, the light blue dress that I love but idk how it looks on me..., and red pants that I can't wear yet bc we need to get it tailored when we go back to Egypt because they are too long on me. I also got Tofeefee, a butterfly bracelet, a ring, a painting set, and Milka chocolate. and 20 euro and my KINDLE AHHH I love love love it. 8th grade was pretty good at the end. no, it was very good the best year ever at the end of the year and I didn't want the year to end. I want to go back to Egypt. I had all my friends sorted out, I had a best friend, I had a bbf, I had friends who weren't my best friends who were my really good friends (Marissa, Jenna, Malak) and I had 2 guys tell me that they like me this year. not bad comparing to 7th grade, where no one told me they liked me. and 6th grade was a crazy year where everyone liked me at some point cause I was white. that's okkk. 2 people this year was good. and I got enough drama in too. fights and all that. remember when you dumped water on Yousef helal?? lol I go girl. it's ur signature move. and idk what else to write Uhh I'm ashamed to say that today is July 9th. I forgot all about thisss. so Mami and Oci have taken away my phone for 6 days and today's day like 4. we're gonna eat supper rn. byaaaa Hii today's July 10th. I'm watching a show called Nevr Have I Ever and likeeeee Paxtons soooo hott. I getting my phone back TMR I think. if they finally give it back ughhhh I saw that I have 90 WhatsApp messages broo. anyway back to the show u need to rewatch it cause omgggg I love it. on Sunday I'm going to camp and I'm soo shared cause gabikas not going with me cause she went to horse camp but is here rn cause a horse kicked her in her face lol. I just want my first kiss alreadyyy. but I go to school in ugly Egypt sooonobody can kiss cause they all Muslim.... but I do have friends at AIS so that's good. Mariam's my bbf I think. anyway I'm going to read now. I'm reading a book Throw Like A Girl, and I'm giving it like 3 stars.... but I can't like every book I read so it's okkk. I love my Kindle but I want some realllll books. I make it my mission to get some books for next year. cause I'm going onto 9th Grade yallllll. ok, byeeee. I wanna be cool next year but I knowww it won't happen cause there aren't any hot guys I can hook up with to make me popular. plussss my friends r weird and soo am I lol. byeeee kisses muah