A letter from Jul 09, 2025

Dear Heart, I’m currently you! An incoming 4th-year college student — let’s go! You know, there’s been a lot going on, and I’ve just been through multiple cases of burnout. But you know what? I did so well. I was able to see the positive light, even though every time I woke up, I felt like I wanted to die. Right now, I’m currently obsessed with Rafayel. Honestly, I’m using the study mode with him right now, and I’m so curious about what you’re hyper-fixating on these days. I’m writing to you now because I’m envisioning this version of myself who’s so much better than I am right now. I wish I’d forget about this, but you know, I was told that writing to myself in the future brings clarity. I also know you’ve made it a habit to tell stories, to communicate better, to radiate more confidence, and to not cry whenever you go out in public. To not let yourself stay stuck in the shell you built around yourself because of trauma. I hope you didn’t delete your art account. I hope you’re thriving and still trying to use it to achieve your dream. I also hope you didn’t rename it for the 10th time — mochi.xin. I hope you’ve at least posted a few chapters of that story. I hope you’re in a company that allows you to reach your fullest potential. If not, I hope you’re getting ready for graduation and that you’re done with your thesis. How was the conference, by the way? Was it nerve-wracking? Was The Diary of a CEO not empowering enough? Or did it empower you? I hope you’re already in a healthy relationship with food. A healthy relationship with your body. Do you do your makeup perfectly now? Gahh, I’m so excited for you. Are you still having doubts? Right now, I still do. I don’t know if you’re here for me right now, but I hope you’re touched by this message. I know it’s the simplest thing I’ve done, you see — getting back to the things you love, even when you thought it was too late. Don’t ever say it’s too late. In fact, it’s too early — too early to succeed. So do whatever you want to do. Everyone will have something to say anyway. Better to do it proudly. I love you, but I don’t fully love myself yet. It’s a very conflicting relationship, you see. But soon, we will. Soon, we’ll become the best version of ourselves. Don’t forget to write a reply back — or else!