A letter from Jul 08, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Hello, you! Happy ******* birthday, I honestly thought you’d **** us at 14, and 17, not complaining just glad to be here!! I can’t believe we made it to 22, I’m on acutane so I can’t physically cry, I hope you’re loved and you know it, I hope you’re known for who you truly are, that you’re understood for what you stand for, and that you love me, because I hate you and I’m not excited for you, I hope you embrace me and all the versions of you that came before me, I want you to know that I’m sorry if I turned out into you and not who you wanted to be, I tried, well sometimes, other times I was too burnt out, too scared, too socially anxious, too traumatized, I don’t want to say I did my best because, I haven’t, and even if I did, you wouldn’t appreciate it because you expected way better, even if you didn’t expect anything and I did so well, you’d still belittle it, so I’m sorry in advance, I say this as I’m eating a fat *** sandwich (wooo carbs ) (and it just fell apart and stained my pants you ***** you still can’t overcome cals!!) but no matter how much I had screwed up, just be grateful for me, learn from and for me, I did what I did because I had my reasons and my tools, and at the time, it made sense to me, I hope you are physically strong, that you finally found the time and dedication to take care of your health and your vessel, I hope your attention spam is longer and your screen time is shorter, and I hope you’re softer, wiser and truly happier, aging is scary, but living isn’t, this number shift doesn’t truly mean anything, it only shows how much you’ve lived on this earth, and that is something to be celebrated, for your 22nd birthday, these are 22 advices from your 21 self (with my humble heart and arrogance): 1. Never let numbers determine your worth, your age, your GPA, your kiss count, your salary, your weight, a number is just a mathematical symbol, your worth lies way beyond 2. Just do it, there will never ever be a right time or a right place, just do it 3. Don’t make “living” a chore, and “burnout” an excuse for lack of action 4. Eat the cake, go for seconds, smoke the cigarette every other time, but eat fibers, go for a run, and sleep well everyday 5. Adventure is overrated, there’s nothing wrong in having a routine and being comfortable in it 6. You haven’t met all the people who are to love you yet, remember this when ever you feel unloved 7. Your screen time is the cause of 80% of your problems, leave the **** phone 8. Boys are just boys, don’t make them the center of every conversation, if you don’t have anything to say that is not about a man, go get more hobbies you’re being a Carrie 9. Family matters more than anything else, call them, love them, celebrate them and never cancel on them to be anywhere else and be kinder to your brothers, you don’t know for how long you’ll be living at the same house 10. Travel, book the ******* flight, there will never be a perfect timing, do it alone, do it soon, see the world and explore new places before you’re too old 11. In an argument where you want to prove your point at the cost of breaking the heart of someone you love, please lose the argument 12. Most people don’t care what you do because most people are not thinking about you, the spotlight is in your head 13. Focus on being stronger, not smaller and never shrink yourself to fit anywhere, if the shoe fits, walk in it, if it doesn’t, size up 14. You owe people kindness, individuality is a hideous concept 15. If being a giver who doesn’t give up on love is foul, it’s okay to be and never let your past relationships determine the fates of your next ones 16. Time doesn’t heal, time numbs, you have to dig deep into the wounds in order to actually get over them 17. Dress cute, eat well, laugh a lot, lift higher weights, learn more, meet your friends, hug your family and move your body while you still can , you never know when it’s the last time 18. If he likes you, you will know, if you’re confused, move on, and until you find someone who is as emotionally mature, physically attractive and financially stable as you, and he is not intimidated by how much you’re thriving, don’t waste your time 19. Work to live but never live to work, if the place you spend most of your day at is making you physically exhausted, emotionally drained and miserable, you better quit, no job is ever worth it 20. Read, use papers, crayons, pens, consume less digital media 21. Your fear of approaching people, job opportunities, and trying new things is robbing you from so much love, success and joy, do it anxious, do it scared, do it hesitant, and if you failed you’d have still learned something 22. The way you look should be the least interesting thing about you, remember that misogyny exists to demean you to a pretty face and a pair of ****, with no wrinkles, no depth and no soul, don’t fall into that trap, be so much more than your reflection in the mirror