A letter from July 7th, 2025

Dear Me, this is a message to you. I'd like to believe you are in a much better place now. Why? Because I didn't give up, I didn't quit and I did not ghost myself. 
Right now, I just started Digital Witch Journey and it's plenty work. It's not the class and assignments I thought it would be. It's actual work, courses, sub courses, assignments, lots of them. 
I want to keep up honey, so I volunteered to be an admin for the updates group of almost 700 people. 
Honey, the work is already staring me in my eyes and I'm beginning to get scared that I'll do the same thing I always do when I start a new class. I'm scared that I'll give up at the first light of discomfort. But Babe, I don't want this for myself. I want more. I want better. I want freedom from my situation and a better life where I can give myself what I want. 
I know it starts from here. So I want to know I didn't give up and you have a great life. I'm going to do all I can, Babe. I will do everything not to ghost me and you. I will set up daily reminders, get accountability partners, get a new wallpaper to remind me of what's at stake. 
I will do it! I won't give in, not this time, not when I need my freedom, not when I want you to have a much better situation than I do. 
So, I'm making a pledge of continuance, my Love. I'm telling you this; that I will do right by you. I will put in the work daily, I will show up even when I'm exhausted, even when all the work seems too much that I want outs. I won't take outs, I'd take a break to sleep and I'd come back to it, because I'm going to make you proud,  Boo. 
I will do right by you. 
So help me God.