A letter from Jul 06, 2025

Dear FutureMe, It's crazy here... I'm so confused, disturbed and tired. I'm trying hard to change, and I totally need God's help. One thing I've realized in this season though is that God is trying to teach me dependence - how to be wholly and totally dependent on Him. He's trying to teach me to trust Him. He says to trust the process. I think this is the toughest thing I've had to do, this is the hardest season of my life. Trusting is hard because I can't see where I'm going, but I know that is what He wants me to do. I'm tired. This is a very stretching season for me, and it's not easy at all. I'm trying to take things one step at a time, but everything just keeps coming at the same time. I get overwhelmed sometimes. Everyday, I pray the same prayer - 'oh help me, Jesus'. Because I've come to the point where by myself, I know I'll mess things up. A point where I know I need the help of God a hundred percent. God help me. So, in a year, I hope you've been able to fit in the pieces of the puzzle, to figure out the things that need figuring out. I hope you've learnt dependence (on God). I hope you've learnt trust. I hope you have a better idea of where God is taking you. I hope you've learnt strength, willpower. I hope you've become a better version. I hope you haven't lost sight of who God is to you, who God is in general. I hope you haven't lost sight of God. I hope you haven't lost the faith. I hope you're even stronger in God. I hope you've found purpose, and peace. I hope you know what love is, how to love, and how to be loved. I hope you've learnt giving. I hope you don't look back and say 'oh I wish I had done this', but that you look back and say 'thank you dear God for all the lessons, for helping me make the right decisions'. I hope you're proud of how far you've come. I hope you've made progress. I hope you've learnt to love yourself. I hope you find YOU.