A letter from Jul 04, 2025

Dear FutureMe, It's been a very rough year for me tbh. Sometimes I even feel like crying but I just can't as I have to man up and face life. At the start of the year, all was going very well actually. I had kick-started my prayer life with a prayer team and spiritually I felt I was in a good place. Financially, I had started to earn in dollars from my investment proceeds from CBEX and I had a plan to compound my interest with my capital so as to raise a substantial sum for my study plans on either the USA or Canada. I got 3 admissions from NEU and multiple rejections but I was optimistic that I could go through and chose data analytics engineering at NEU, Vancouver campus as my choice of preferred institution. Luckily for me, I got all my papers complete whilst awaiting the funds to sort my POF with. But alas, I lost all my money that I have compounded from the CBEX crypto investment to a tune of over $15,000. This was the most painful experience of my adult life after my mum's *****. I couldn't cry but it looked as though all my plans for graduate studies was tied to raising that money via the investment platform. I had no plan B too, and didn't want to take a loan from Mpower to go school abroad as that will make me highly indebted after schooling. Truth is, I didn't have the mental energy or deep knowledge to even start the study permit application and thus went to employ the services of an agent to handle the entire study permit application and the Proof of funds also, thinking it will relief me of the entire disappointment of my lost fund while putting my study permit application in a capable hand of someone with a successful track record of helping aspiring students get their visa and student permit application approved. But that was the biggest mistake I made yet in 2025. My study permit application was denied just a week after doing my biometrics and 10 days after applying. I didn't know which part shocked me the most - whether the fast pace of feedback from IRCC or the fact that I was about to have my entire dreams, plans and hopes of resuming for Fall 2025 shattered . This was the second setback in as many as a few weeks apart. The agent called and tried to pacify me with promises that he would reapply immediately and do it for free this time absorbing the application fees himself. Well, I encouraged myself in the Lord and sort prayers from my dad and his pastor; perhaps maybe my village people are after me and have vowed to make sure they frustrate every of my efforts towards achieving this goal of mine. I have visualized, dreamed, planned and even started seeing myself resigning soonest from my current job , but it seems all these plans and dreams were not going to materialize. Well, we summoned the courage and reapplied after a month of reviewing the cause of the denial and providing the missing information and then submitted the second application, only to be then informed by our OGS from NEU that I can't reuse the same PAL I was given by the school earlier for a second study permit application even though it's expiring date is bolding written on the document as the 31st of December 2025. I was further devastated by this findings and checked every single website both that of IRCC and that of the school to find out if this is a factual information and how I missed such an information all this while. What is even more annoying the fact that the agent also didn't know about this despite being a visa agent and should be on top of this kind of information and changes. My world was crashing down on me and I literally couldn't do anything about it. I have tried writing, appealing and even begging the schools admission team and the OGS to make get me a new PAL so I can add to the submitted application but I was rather advised to withdraw my application and liaise with the admission team to see if I would qualify for another PAL or better still change my campus to a USA campus. This has been my ordeal ever since and up until now, I haven't gotten any reasonable update from the school or IRCC concerning my application. I am devastated, sad, unhappy, and distraught upon realizing that I may be about to lose all the scholarship I earned for this program and also the entire sum paid to the agent may just be going to waste. Right now, I feel as though I am poorer than I was when the year started, more unhappy, and even my prayer squad is passing through its own ordeal too as one of our key members is sick and unavailable to pray with us again which has affected the flow of our daily prayers. I am daily seeking for God's help to see me through to know what should become of my career and marital plans this year. I need to achieve something this year so this year doesn't seem like a failure. Financially I am so disappointed and sad, career wise it even look like I haven't also found a way to break through this current level I am at, and also I am 35 years old and still no relationship or marriage in sight. Although I started talking with a girl on Edmonton, Canada and also started applying for new data analyst roles as a backup plan, my deepest desire is that somehow somehow, help could locate me to bail me out from this challenge of PAL and getting my study permit. I may defer as a worse case scenario but I don't know what that means with the agent and fees paid to him for his services which may not extend for very long. I hope, believe and pray that God sees me through this phase of my life and that the years end much better that it currently is or started. I can't even fast anymore and prayer is gradually becoming a lamentation epistle with God. I hope and pray he sees my heart and the sadness inherent therein and make a way for me, so help me God. Till I write u again I wish you God speed, divine favor and God's abundant mercy over this and other situations of life you may confront. 🙏