A letter from Jul 04, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Hey! I am writing this on 4th of July at 2:00 AM. I feel really sad, and I have honestly been feeling this way for a while. I don't really like what I see in the mirror, do you love your body yet? Do we ever learn to love ourselves, or am I meant to feel this way forever. I bet I don't even have to explain what this feeling is, because you know exactly what I mean. It is like an empty feeling, but there are other emotions. Hatred, but for myself. Regret, so much regret. I don't know why I feel this way. Is something wrong with me? Did you ever get better? Feel better? I hope you do because I think we deserve to get better. I hope we do, I really do. I hope we learn to stop being mean to ourselves. I hope we have a better relationship with food. I hope we stick to our goals. Speaking of goals, did you ever get to study abroad? Land any internships out of state, or in state, it does not matter. Do any research? Do anything that you said you really wanted to do. I hope yes, you know how was dream big. oh we dream so big, i hope some of it became a reality. I don't want to feel this way, gosh I am all over the place. i love you, you deserve everything you want.