A letter from July 4th, 2025

Dear FutureMe, it's the second day after you've submitted the thesis and probably it haven't been ling since you've defended it orally, i want to remind of the time that you where in july, the feelings and worries you had. At first the end of a 1.5 year long partnership that you ended over text that was well needed good job on that it's definitely the right decision.the end if a 3 months internship that affected your work and emotions negatively.the end of a 6 year long university studies that is accompanied by that mind clutter that is now over.the submission of a thesis that you used AI in more than you wanted(tho i think i did a bit better than others) in which you forgot to make the changes that you where supposed to. and submitting it while looking at your mistakes. now is the time that you've been fearing for almost a decade now. the confusion in life the fog in the future, but maybe you have to experience it to get over it once and for all. now what really is shaking you is that car ride on the day of the submission with your friend, maybe you where exepectimg a similar outcome in the back of your head, but it definitely wasn't waht you truly wanted, beacuse the development was way faster than the ideal and now you catched feelings, not just because of the deep convos but also cause maybe you talked a bit too much and a bit more than her. now what really struck you is how she expressed her perception of you which was much better that expected. which is a proof of your attractiveness that you thought you didn't have, or took too long to build. now i hope that the defense went well. the financial situation is better as i don't want to talk about it now. but you definitely remember how bad it was. and maybe you found your future vision and just maybe some mental peace even though it'll probably several years to reach the mental satisfaction that you aim for. and about our little friend that we talked about even though i hope something will develop just to have that experience once in my life even though i know that a long term thing isn't possible with her cz of the different core beliefs sets. but i speculate that you probably won't get much collaboration and that your expectations where high because of the daydreaming you had. 
lastly make sure to write another letter i want to keep this going