A letter from Jun 24, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Welp, happy 18th birthday! i guess you made it another orbit around the sun. First and foremost, let me ask some questions cause as of right now I'm very curious on what the next year holds for me. Did you decide on a college? Did you get accepted into OSU or OU? Those are the colleges you were looking at around this time last year. Did you and Nixon last? I do hope so. He is a good guy and I hope he stays good. Did you finally make it to the Niall Horan concert you've been dying to go to?? DID THE REST OF THE 1D BOYS HAVE A REUNION??? How did senior year track and XC go? You're slowly losing the passion right now, i hope you push through it and do great things, like make it to state!!! Did you get back on the 4x4? Did you improve in the 200 or 800? Enough of running! I need to say some things to you. Please do not give up. right now, life's a struggle. Home is place you hate going to. Does Joel still hate you? Did trace move back home? i miss my brother. Do you still fake being happy around people? Or are you really actually happy now? I want to make a prediction. I predict I'm going to be so happy to move out and that I'm going to be still striving to be the best person i can be. Its hard right now though. Just remember that little you would be so freaking happy. a high school graduate and to be starting college in less than 3 months! Its truly amazing! Through all those tough times of crying yourself to sleep and stress of school and home life, you're going to do it! Just remember that even though nobody is supportive right now, baby, pre-teen, and teenage you are all cheering you on with tears in their eyes. Youve been abandoned, hurt, abused, bullied, and loved. Let the love shine through. I pray that you have learned to love yourself. Like honestly you're a pretty cool person. Like who else do you know regularly runs 5Ks, has two jobs, balances school, AND knows every single One Direction song within 10 seconds of it being played? yeah, that's pretty cool! or maybe I'm biased....... probably not though.....jk i definitely am. Anyways, keep up the good work babe. keep fighting even though it might feel like everyone wants you to lose. Don't forget that you are a mother freaking queen and not one person needs to take off your crown. Xoxo, your past self.