A letter from Jun 20, 2025

Dear Beks, remember this? most likely you remember all of this and are remembering the date to be watching for your email a year from now. Or maybe you forgot and this is a precious surprise. Either way, hi. There might be a lot of things that haven't changed, and then probably some big things that have change. There's been so much ******* change just is these first 6 months of the year. Ok just to go through a few on my mind, 1) anything happening with Jewan? 2) are we dating anyone? 3) do we still live at 4111? 4) what are we doing for a job? 5) what's going on with US politics and Palestine? Honestly I could keep going but that would be the whole letter. What has or hasn't happened, you're going to be ok. Right now I'm really trying to address shame, and all the ways that it comes up in my life and relationships. I feel like I'm growing up right now in some beautiful ways, and mostly it's around how I communicate and show up with myself and people in my life. Not running away from vulnerability and intimacy, and seeing that those are so powerful and where the deep and incredible connection takes place. I hope that you are continuing to build your internal safe world, where you trust yourself, know more of all your parts and live more into your True Self. You are not something that needs to be fixed. You are so capable and you have more capacity than you think, and I hope you know more of how strong you are and that you can lean more into confidence in who you are. You are ******* amazing. Healing and working on things into your thirties for some of the first time is scary ****, and you are doing it and learning along the way. And really who cares if you experience things a little later than other people, you are not the only one. There is actually so much beauty and sacredness in being able to experience some things for the first time when you know yourself so much more now. I hope you have grown more into a gentle self love, that you have learned to sit in discomfort and not run from it and that you are continuing on your journey of more joy, growth and curiosity. And that those things bring some amazing people and opportunities into your life. I am so proud of you and I love you a lot. Beks p.s. Now write a letter to your future self ten years from now.