A letter from Jun 11, 2025

You are 21 now? It's been a long time and I'm so proud of you for coming this far. Just in 2023, you were wondering if you would still be alive by the next year, drowned in depression, and now look at you, you are glowing with self respect and self love. No one has ever done it like you. You walked through numerous fire yet still came out praying, that's because you believe in Allah, you have deep trust in Him that He will always have your back and protect you. No one does it like you, Syaa. No one is so self aware like you. When most of people at your age is busy chasing validation on social media, you keep your circle selective and small, quality over quantity. You removed toxic people from your life because you put your mental health over everyone else. You cut off that guy because you can sense yourself drifting away from Allah because of it. If you keep putting Allah first in everything you do, then trust me, Allah will make sure everything you lost because of Him, will be replaced with greater things. You just have to trust Him, again and again, even when things may look uncertain. Don't forget, never forget those times you only had Him when you were suicidal. Don't forget Him. You can forget everyone else, but not Him. I'm reminding you this because you had lose Him before, and I don't want you to go through that unexplainable pain again. Don't. Ever. Forget. Him. No matter what you do. Happy birthday, sweet 21, Syaa. - your past