A letter from Jun 11, 2025

Dear FutureMe, I hope you are doing well. Recentally I have been doing really well. I do have some body issues, I think me healing from my childhood and stuff has really inhansed my body issues. Maybe I just need to hate myself for something or else I don't really feel like myself. I hope that by the time I am reading this I have overcome that. Although I don't really know if I want to overcome it. I find comfort in it, Im not really sure how I would live without it. Maybe you know though. I also hope that I have read more genres and have taken a likeing to something other then romance. At this moment I am 14, by the time you read this, you will be 15, about to turn 16. I hope its treating you good. I cant wait to drive, I want to have more freedom and be able to go more places. I want to keep up with journaling, it has been very helpful to work out my feelings. I use to work out my feelings in my head, and I think that just hurt me more. Although my journal is very bipolar. I like being single right now, I like not having to depend on anyone, its nice to finally depend on myself. Also I fear I may not be able to let myself depend on someone. My abandonment issues really start to kick in when I want to love someone. I think I really hurt dustin because of it, but if I kept trying to show him the love he deserves, I would have just hurt him and myself more. Just promise me that you wont let someone else's views on you, hurt you to much. Nobody will understand you, so don't try to hart to explain it to them when they don't. Love, pastme