A letter from Jun 12, 2025

Dear Me, I wondering when i will meet someone i wish for or someone i want also wondering what kind of future i will lived on in the future as well. I just kinda numb seeing the same thing repeated or similar thing happen instead of feel sad or others. I hope everything will be good and better than last time. I don't wish for more if i cant have that someone. But at least i able to pursue my academic as what i want if i could do it. I should focus on myself more and my academic myself. I do have someone i admired before and it been several years passby but nothing has change just our relationship not that close as we used to. I don't blame for anything because i already let go everything. I hope be more happy and full with joy of memories it doesn't has to be with someone but when alone also have this kind of feeling.I hope u don't too stress of yourself you can do it and keep it up. Actually when see back the hard pathway which i always keep want give up but i managed didnt give up is the most best choice i ever made. I should take a look back at my school after i finish all my thing or before. It has kind of feelings when enter back eventhough i didn't went back yet. I don't hope for more i hope i can be myself rather than faking it. I feel the feeling of lost that moment i understand how it feel. I should let everything that not really important as the quote say keep ur windows even the scenery is beautiful.