A letter from June 11th, 2025

Dear Future Me,
Hi. Today is June 11th, and sadly, I didn’t make it into the Top 80 students at CTU. Classes are already starting, and I’m still not enrolled anywhere. Mom and I are still inquiring at different universities. Just yesterday, we visited UV. It went well, and I think I got in? But there’s a problem—I don’t think we can afford the tuition.
Mom’s worried, and I feel so guilty. She’s even started talking to me about changing my course. Honestly, I feel hopeless. I don’t know what to do anymore. Part of me wants to give up on college. I keep wondering what God’s plan is for me... but still, I’m hoping. Still praying.
My birthday is coming in three days, but I’m not excited about it. Adulting doesn’t feel exciting at all. I just wish everything would go the way I want it to.
If you're reading this sometime in the future, I hope you've made it. I hope you're still pursuing your course—even if it’s been hard. Sorry if this letter sounds like a mess. I’m just overwhelmed. Right now, I feel depressed.
With hope,your past self