A letter from Jun 06, 2025

Dear FutureMe, I just need a decent number of frns tht I could vibe w n talk w abt stuff. I won't ask for more I promise but a handful of ppl mostly frns in clg cuz idk my now frns,,I feel like I'm their punching bag or smthg I feel suffocated w them, I couldn't bear to imagine the cmg 5 yrs w them I'm scared I want to cry I'd rather be alone than be w ppl tht just trauma dump n never care to listen abt wht goes on in my mind. I feel so judged when I'm w them I just can't. survival in clg will be tougher than ever if this goes on I just sometimes, want ppl listen to me instead of talking, the things I think always rot in my brain for days and i end feeling bad for myself for not hv someone to talk them out. ppl complain tht they don't know me at all but they never tried to make me talk, ik I could talk out stuff but idk I'm scared ig. I want ppl to push me to the boundaries n make me talk. I just want frns in clg, or frns in general. I promise I'll be a better person, a good person. I just wish for handful of ppl I could call mine.