A letter from Jun 06, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Idk if u'll still be alive or maybe pain and presure took control of you and made u did what u forbade to. I write u this, dont know why Im doin it, maybe cauz my teacher told u to idk why, u remember, Mr Dubus. Anyways, idk if u succeded in ur studies, maybe u crashed down and stopped everything, thing that I wont be surprised happened tbh, but perchance u made it, with a miracle that somehow happened, and in this case I'll be proud of u, for once in my life, dang. Also, I hope u finally found someone, that TRUELY love u for who u are and not what u give, maybe its Manon, maybe someone else, maybe absolutely no one cauz u didn't evolved for a year, but I think ur at least enough smart to do it, aren't u ? I would have been so surprised to see you rn, seeing if u finally knew how to get out of those suicidal thoughts or those bloody nights where u couldnt even close an eye, cauz **** it Im suffering from it rn, so plz put some efforts in ts and be happy for God sake, idk how to do it but maybe u somehow do, or maybe u dont and ur still in the same state that I am. Also, Iwas wondering if u still talks to some school friends, like Mathis or others, cauz, ways splitting, might have been hard to keep contact with everyone, and I hope u made new friends in ur schools cauz doin 5 years without anyone must be catastrophic, at least it is from my point of u. Ngl I'm getting tired rn it feels heavy to keep eyes open, like my phone died no one is there ts bloody boring, Im close to take a nap hoping I wont wake up, but maybe things worst living and Manon worst the mental fight, or maybe this is a waste of time and a huge hole where Im jumping, honestly idfk what is going on, Im lost chat, Im quitting ts. Hope ur still alive, ur old skinny arse crap u that wrote u ts, Kiss kiss ma boi. (PS : plz open ur mind of food Im sick of eating pastas every days) .