A letter from Jun 05, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Hi I'm at Nana's place right now and things are quite cause it's 7 am and most of them are sleeping. I think only me, mami and rajveer mama are up. They are all awake but still laying on their bed with eyes closed most of the time. This phase is not a really happy one. I hate life lil lil right now, but I'll work hard from today onwards to make it better for you. For you to go to a good college and enjoy the life, do things we always thought about doing, meet new people, make new friends, work on your health(physique), learn new skills we always thought of learning like martial arts, drums, singing, designing or coding. I hope you are also doing things rudrakshi, cause I am working for you now, I'll be I mean lol from today onwards, it's netaji ka beta's bdy today so I installed discord to wish him(I'll uninstall soon). I'll going to delhi tomorrow most prolly, I wanna die, but I don't wanna really. See, I see you and I'll writing to you, so I want you to see the beautiful things and enjoy it. Nani's up and now she's talking to me so I gtg. Also I saw mumma in my dream today, it was raining and all and people got converted(funny way) and even cows were thinking of attacking us offffff. Me and jainub we were going to the upper side and we were at the khokka someone people were selling some stuff so i thought I'll bring money from my house and then we'll buy stuff, so we went inside my gali and jainub and me parted cause she also wanted to do something at her place, then I found tanu's younger sister and we went to our house and I saw ma sitting in fornt of the computer table in the bedroom. She looked really beautiful, in her red gown and just sitting there with a remote, ufffff it was so beautiful, I stopped working, I was shocked, I knew that she is no more but now she is here, so I was really happy I couldn't believe it, I told tanu's sister to leave I won't come and all, I touched her,but cause I knew so much, I woke up, I couldn't continue it much in the dream. But I saw her and she looked so beautiful just like how we used to come back from school and everything's clean and she is watching TV. Really rare but so peaceful and beautiful. I hate everything, I want to go back to that dream . I wanted to talk to her, just talk at least. "My mom's dead and everything is worse now ".