A letter from Jun 02, 2025

Hi future Maddie! When you're getting this, you will be finishing your freshman year of college, at UCSB! (you are currently wearing your pink and brown ucsb hoodie on June 3rd- sincerely maddie from mr. curtice's room) Time has been super weird lately. The beginning of the school year feels like only a few days ago but also 20 years ago. I know that right now it seems like you will never graduate or finish school or even be at college even though it's so close, but eventually it will happen and by the time you're reading this it will have been a long time ago and life down there is the new normal. I'm so scared to leave my family, I don't know how to do it on my own and don't want my mommy to be so far away but I know this is what I want to do. Hopefully everything is nice and you make lots of friends to never feel lonely and you keep snowboarding! I graduate in 10 days. (9 now! someone keeps ripping off the sign you made its pissing me off!!!!) Today is Kindergarten Day for senior spirit week and I overslept lol. Mom was mad also about how short my shorts were. I'm going to bake cookies with Hannah at my house today to sell for our APES project and also make musubi for all our fat friends. (update next day- somehow kai came and sharpened my knives and daryl got paid in musubi to help us and drive us around even though that was terrifying and I never wanna do that again- was very fun though kai gave me a 9/10) I've been making lots of friends recently because we're graduating soon, going to the lake or the cliff spot or just getting food at night or the beach bonfires. It's been so fun but sooo busy. I am so happy right now just like all the time, I hope you still feel this way. We also made a great escape to get Taco Bell during lunch even though we definitely shouldn't have, I am so broke and also in sm trouble for leaving but I would never turn down a function- prom is at the end of the week and it's going to be super duper busy but hopefully fun, lowk wish I was going alone I hope you don't regret it. I've just been having such a nice time recently even though I am super behind on schoolwork and kinda dying but I love it. Hopefully by then I've actually edited it, but I've made quite the documentary this year. I've been vlogging random moments when I'm out, interviews at school or at home before I go do something. I know there are a few where I record just to remind myself how happy I am in this moment. Very nostalgaic of me but sometimes I'm scared to just let the good moments go. Hopefully you're still documenting but still remembering to live in the moment. I just did the math and it costs like $250 a day to be living there lol so you better be making it count. Also just found out that you won "Most likely to fall asleep in class" senior superlative. I'm dead idk how that happened but it's absolutely right. Are we peaking? God I hope not that would be terrible. Hopefully when you're reading this you've made a great group of friends in California and feel at home, even though I know missing Ben and Elliott will be terrible. I hope you remember to call them and stay close because they are the most adorable things ever when not terrorizing. I love them so much and I already miss Krissie too a little bit, but none of them are acting like they are scared for me to leave like I am. I am super scared. I love you so much! I hope you never lose your sparkle or fun because I think that's what keeps me going and happy. Even when I grow up, I hope I continue to find a lot of joy in small things and in nature, and that I stay free and adventurous. I try to remember that life doesn't care about the excuses I make to be unhappy and that every moment is the best my life can be so always do what you can. Please don't get over-involved in work, take time to enjoy your life PLEASE. I hope I go on a summer backpacking trip sometime in the next few years, but also lock in on college payment I believe in you. Just like win the lottery or something Also stop drinking celsius they're bad for you. I have one in my hand right now. Love you lots