A letter from Jun 03, 2025

Dear FutureMe, I hope you’re doing okay rn, Maybe by the time you’re reading this, naka-moving up ka na sa senior high or siguro not yet, I just want you to know how proud I am of you for getting through everything, maskin budlay budlay for you, Today is June 3, 2025, and yanda, I'm writing this with a heavy heart kay ang world against simo yanda BWHAHHA and honestly, I don’t even know how I’m surviving each day. Bug-at bug-at sa pakiram***, It’s like every second, I’m holding back tears, pretending I’m fine when deep down, I feel so broken. I still can’t believe how someone I gave so much love to could just walk away like that as if way kami pinag samahan, du way nya lang ko naging pahinga, tanan nga moment nga gin shared namon, tanan nga i love you's, they all meant so much to me. Pero siya? I guess it was just temporary. Masakit panumdomon nga habang ako hindi maka tulog sa sakit nga gin hatag nya sakon tas siya, basi himbing himbing iya tulog with someone else on his mind, Sobrang unfair. I gave everything my time, my love, my whole heart only to be left with silence and unanswered questions. I keep saying I want closure, pero let’s be real… the closure I need is already in front of me. He didn’t fight for me. Wala nya man lang gin try biskan once lang, Instead of fixing things, he chose to look for someone new. And that hurts more than words can explain. This is the second time na nga halos diko maka tulog sa pag ask sakon worth, sulod sakon utok permi, was I not enough? Did I do something wrong?pro bal-an koman nga ang real answer sakon question ara na sakon atubang, nga hindi nya lang gid koya palangga, or siguro oo, papangga nyako pro hindi parehas sakon pag palangga siya. Dumduman mopa mopa akon line permi nga nahambal sakon friends? “I don’t want to find someone better than him… I just want him to be better.” That used to be my truth hwhaahhah I kept holding on to the hope na maybe someday mag bag o man sa, nga maybe someday he’d realize my worth. Pero yanda, I finally see nga he never planned to change. He was never going to be better for me. And that hurts, but it’s also what’s pushing me to heal, muna akon inspiration para maka get over siya And you know what? Maybe this heartbreak is part of God's plan. Maybe the reason why Lord took him away from my life is because He knew he was a distraction. He saw how I was slowly losing myself, how I was starting to forget my worth just to keep someone who never saw it in the first place. Maybe God is telling me, “anak, you deserve better.” And I want to believe that. I want to believe that this pain will eventually lead me to a better version of myself, naks du quotes self noh? "I want to believe this pain will eventually lead me to a better version of myself" ackkk BWHAHAAH Future self, if right now you’ve finally moved on, if you’ve finally healed, I want to say thank you. Thank you for sa pag pili simo sarili, very very thankyou, thankyou for holding on, for fighting through the nights when all you wanted to do was cry. Thank you for not giving up on your dreams, even when your heart felt too heavy, sobra ka bug-at nga du di kana ka hulag (oa) And I hope you kept that promise—to make our parents proud, to graduate with honors. Kay syempre muna gid ya aton goal this year diba!? We asked God to help us do well this school year, and I know He’s guiding us. You’re so strong for getting through this. You’re so brave for letting go of someone you loved deeply, just so you could love yourself more. I hope you look back on this version of me—the heartbroken girl writing this—and smile, because you know she made it through. I hope you’re at peace now. I hope you’ve learned to love yourself the way you wanted him to love you. And if someday love finds you again, I hope it’s the kind that doesn’t leave. The kind that stays. The kind that chooses you every day, without you having to beg for it. But for now, just keep choosing you. Because you are enough, even when he made you feel like you weren’t. Love, Your past self, who’s hurting, but healing. Who’s breaking, but believing. Who’s slowly learning to let go, so you could finally be free.