A letter from Jun 02, 2025

Dear FutureMe, this is just a test.. I will wait a year for this.. actually nvm, I guess I'll tell you what's going on. As of right now, I am struggling with a LOT of anxiety and I am depressed AF. I can't go to bed without thinking, I am stressing out over the most smallest things, I can't talk to people normally anymore. I basically cannot function like a regular human being. As a result, I am 19, unemployed and not in school. I am having a lot of negative thoughts, I truly think I am a failure... I literally peaked bruh. This was not supposed to happen... I know younger us would hate me so much. I wanted a job so bad, got one and was traumatized. The manager was a grumpy ******* and gave me high expectations when I haven't even been working there for a full month. Now I overthink and dissociate when I see anything that is related to jobs and careers, it is so hard for me to apply but I am hoping that will change soon. We need to get that bread and go to school bro.. btw, are we still considering computer science... even though it's becoming a useless degree :( I wonder if you still want to be a data analyst. Honestly, for the type of person we are, an office job sounds like a perfect environment for us. What else do I tell you.. I still have a loving girlfriend :D it'll be our 6 years in july 7th. She is the most caring, supporting girlfriend I could ever ask for. Don't **** it up. We better still be together... I am also going to tell that to 25yr old me lol. Even though she has been through so much this year, she has been getting better :') She has had her moments, but I can tell it's not as bad as before. I am glad she is getting better and I will make sure to be there when she needs me. I hope you're still doing that.. don't take her for granted, we've been each others firsts, we've seen each others bad sides but she literally changed your life. Okay... I think that is all the major life updates I have right now. I hope you are doing well, please try to take your own advice. I have acknowledged that even though I am in this situation right now, I have made plenty of progress. I am slowly starting to see myself and understand myself, don't **** dat up... everything that I have done for you will be gone. We've gone through so much, please don't be harsh on yourself anymore. Remember that we are not alone, there are plenty of others who may have had similar experiences, everybody has their own traumas, everyone is at a different stage in life. If things start getting worse within a year, maybe it's time for a therapist... We both know that will help TREMENDOUSLY. Even if things are better, therapist would still be good... ya never know. Take it easy okay? I love you.