A letter from Jun 01, 2025

Dear FutureMe, I want to tell you that I feel bad these late days. Last whole week I barely lived. I think I have a depression. I slept for 9-10 hours and rest of my waking days I just hoped to be back in bed. Yawning all the time. Last week ended great. I met friends. I had good karaoke party and helped my good friend to get closer to girl of his dreams. Then we were on a festival where we accidentally get introduced to a cool role model dad and his cool teenage son. The world crumbled on sunday. I went to meet my long term friends, was in hurry and didn't catch that the place was changed. This led to me being the first one in the wrong place, to be late for the next, correct one. And somehow, I guess my ego was not ready for slight poking, I didn't take well when my long time friends were making fun of me for this mistake, and for other stuff during the meal. Since then, I stayed at home office, barely working and just regullary layed in bed. Sad. Sometimes writing to my bumble match. When we eventually met at thursday this week, I was tired but happy. It was a nice date. We went bouldering and had kebab afterwards. This whole thing with me being sleepy didnt changed untill today. I forced myself to go out with friends this saturday, and it was fun. But I think im still battling depression. There were two girls I liked, one should have gone to the festival with us but just ghosted me. The other, after the date, is visually less interested so, I have not much hope for that connection either. Im just sad and lonely in a sense that I dont have anyone to tell this sadness to. I hope it will be better, later when you read this e-mail. - Jakub