A letter from May 26, 2025

Dear FutureMe, by this time you’ll be a graduating senior. How was senior year? I’ve been dating Yuki for about 7 months now, our relationship is faltering. How is it now? Are you together? Are you okay? I realized that I haven’t been okay in a while. It’s funny bc I’m writing this in the bath and mom just asked if I was depressed to which I answered with a quick no. Though I wonder if she noticed how melancholy it sounded. I have been depressed for years with no courage to talk about it or ask for help. But you already know that. Anyways what I really want to know is, are you okay? Does it get better? I literally only hope that it gets better I can’t stand being trapped in my own mind while also having to try to understand others and act based on them. It’s tiring. I’m so tired. All I want is to be happy and yet I find so much comfort in my depression it’s conflicting. Everything is just too much and so stressful. I also just caused an argument between my parents so yeah. Shouldn’t have slammed those doors, but I had to let some anger out. I just wanted to be sad in the bath a little while longer. Anyways tell me everything that’s going on rn. I know you don’t usually have someone to talk about this stuff with. Ps: how’s crumbl going?