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Today was the first time i cried because I was alone. Well, not really… I cried when I looked back at you. I saw you sitting alone, hiding your pain away because you couldn’t cry more than you already did. I remember… you used to freeze up, and only cry, it was all you knew to do. Today, I know what to do when I feel odd, but I forgot how to cry. We were told not to, right? Hey, all these times they called you weird and told you shouldn’t express yourself, they were wrong. That pain inside your chest… you could only cry to try to let it out. But today… I know what it is. I know how it felt, and now I see you. I see you, I really do. I see you alone there, so scared and confused. And it’s okay, I feel that way as well… it’s okay. You know why it’s okay? Because I can see you from here, oh and you are so strong… you have no idea! You made it all by yourself, all your tries and failures, every single thing you did helped me today. Everything was worth it. I needed you and everything you did. And that means we are not alone. I am here, forever grateful for the times you cried and recognised you needed help. I am only here because of you, because you didn’t give up when you thought it was the only way. Hey, I see it now, even if you’ve accepted the fate you thought we’d have… you kept going. You went outside like our therapist told you to, even though it was incredibly hard. Can you see it? You did all of this! I am here now… because of all we did. And no need to get overwhelmed, I know changing hurts. I know how bad it feels to be stared at, or how bad it hurts to see your body grow into another you don’t recognise. I know how it feels to be you, and I am so proud of you. I love being you, I love being who I am now. And I am not alone, despite how lonely we feel. You cried so much… now I understand it. But we are not alone! I have everything we built. And guess what? Now I can rest. I can take some time before the next step. I am still you, despite all the changes, we are still alive, who we are. And I am loved, even if I still don't fully comprehend this feeling. And... loneliness is not such a big monster, I found out it’s just a small baby rat in front of a lantern… its shadow look so big and scary! And guess what? Things are hard, but it feels good to be part of all this. You did this, and you did the right thing, and I know you would be proud of me. Tomorrow is still scary, but I will grab your hand, and I will never leave you. I promise, I am always here, because you were there for us even when everything went dark and all you knew was fear. Things happen slowly, and it’s great that way! Thanks to you… I know who we are now, and I’m satisfied with where things are headed. I love you back, alright? And, just like you did, I will love myself even through the worse days.
Today was the first time i cried because I was alone. Well, not really… I cried when I looked back at you. I saw you sitting alone, hiding your pain away because you couldn’t cry more than you already did. I remember… you used to freeze up, and only cry, it was all you knew to do. Today, I know what to do when I feel odd, but I forgot how to cry. We were told not to, right? Hey, all these times they called you weird and told you shouldn’t express yourself, they were wrong. That pain inside your chest… you could only cry to try to let it out. But today… I know what it is. I know how it felt, and now I see you. I see you, I really do. I see you alone there, so scared and confused. And it’s okay, I feel that way as well… it’s okay. You know why it’s okay? Because I can see you from here, oh and you are so strong… you have no idea! You made it all by yourself, all your tries and failures, every single thing you did helped me today. Everything was worth it. I needed you and everything you did. And that means we are not alone. I am here, forever grateful for the times you cried and recognised you needed help. I am only here because of you, because you didn’t give up when you thought it was the only way. Hey, I see it now, even if you’ve accepted the fate you thought we’d have… you kept going. You went outside like our therapist told you to, even though it was incredibly hard. Can you see it? You did all of this! I am here now… because of all we did. And no need to get overwhelmed, I know changing hurts. I know how bad it feels to be stared at, or how bad it hurts to see your body grow into another you don’t recognise. I know how it feels to be you, and I am so proud of you. I love being you, I love being who I am now. And I am not alone, despite how lonely we feel. You cried so much… now I understand it. But we are not alone! I have everything we built. And guess what? Now I can rest. I can take some time before the next step. I am still you, despite all the changes, we are still alive, who we are. And I am loved, even if I still don't fully comprehend this feeling. And... loneliness is not such a big monster, I found out it’s just a small baby rat in front of a lantern… its shadow look so big and scary! And guess what? Things are hard, but it feels good to be part of all this. You did this, and you did the right thing, and I know you would be proud of me. Tomorrow is still scary, but I will grab your hand, and I will never leave you. I promise, I am always here, because you were there for us even when everything went dark and all you knew was fear. Things happen slowly, and it’s great that way! Thanks to you… I know who we are now, and I’m satisfied with where things are headed. I love you back, alright? And, just like you did, I will love myself even through the worse days.
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