A letter from May 23, 2025

Dear FutureMe, this is gonna be cringe for sure so I’m gonna write it in English:) I’m Ngan, today is 2025/05/24, and I’ve just hung out with Pierrick, we had dinner and walked together. It was fun, I like him a lot but I know this is not gonna going anywhere because he’s literally a red flag:) so I’m gonna be his friend, or friend zone sth bc who cares? I’m gonna be in China this late August, having a serious relationship now is not a good idea tho (and he already has his girl). But I do like him, a lot!!!! We met on Tinder, 2 days before meeting him I met a German guy and we kissed but when I hung out with Pierrick I forgot Timmey's face haha. Don’t know if I would have a boyfriend one year later, I want to hug and rely on someone so bad for years. That’s why I easily fall for everyone I meet that being nice to me:) sounds so desperate tho Also, I wonder did u stopped smoking at the time or if you still smoke a lot, I think it would be the latter lol. However, I hope that things are going well in China, maybe I will study at Nanjing Normal University I think? I’ve just received the result of the scholarship a few days ago and I haven’t heard any news from other uni yet! I was so stressful at the time that I got depression, anxiety, and bipolar disorder, everything was a mess but I got over it, not completely but 70% better than before. I wonder if I would regret going to China. I hope not, it’s been my dream for a long time and I did it. I also wonder if my dad’s health is normal now. I want to take my family to China to travel, hope that I can study well, earn money, and achieve my dream. Nothing left to say bc I don’t have any other words, just hope that I’m doing well in the future, and note that I right now would be so proud of myself bc I made it to China, that is my big big dream and I did it!!! **** that mental health issues, I can do that, hope I will be much more beautiful than now haha!! And I hope I can meet Di and Uyen, I miss them so much omg