A letter from May 19, 2025

Dear FutureMe, is the cure still peak and did we finally go to a concert? I've been waiting for Robert Smith to finally release the tour dates but all he's been doing is creating remixes of songs of a lost world. I don't even like that album that much. I need more old Robert, like whiney freak Robert talking abt how boys don't cry. Anyways, I'm assuming were still goth, cuz duh. Lately I've been really into layering my clothes. Tights under shorts, long sleeves under graphic ts, ripped tights as a shirt, oh and also ripping up older clothes I don't like. I've been letting my hair grow out in hopes of cutting it. I want something cool like thinner long pieces going down my shoulders and rough layers from my jawline up, maybe some bangs to although I'm not sure how I'd look with them. I'm not sure I could commit to dying my hair black or anything but I feel like dying the tips of those long pieces and even some layer tips black would be pretty. Give my hair some more shape even though its just dark brown and probably wont be noticeible, still worth a shot. Are we still dating Diego? I feel like we wont be together by then honestly. He says he understands I want to take it slow but at the same time he kinda just does whatever he wants even when I say no. Although yesterday we had a nice conversation about how we felt. It's not like I don't want to date him, Im just scared to date anyone after Ruben. Me and him had an almost perfect relationship in my book without getting into all the details. I like how slow everything was and I liked how long it lasted without feeling dry. I want that kind of thing with Diego but I don't want to date him and expect him to be like my ex, cuz thats horrible right?