A letter from May 20th, 2025

It's been a year since Apollo died. (18th May)
I weren't even at home then I was in the midlands on a trip but I wish I didn't go. I didn't even want to go I was contemplating whether or not if I should go but I did. I ended up leaving you. I wish I could've spend so much more time with you and maby just maby you would still be here till this day and this letter that I'm writing would have never existed. I miss you Apollo. More than I ever thought I would. You left us way way too soon. I thought we would atleast share our bd together Apollo. You would be 3. I would be 23. Look at that we would upgraded and have a number 3 labeled on us. I miss you man like God dammit Apollo. You were too good. So white and fluffy and fat. Jet blue bright eyes. So unique, playfull and chill. Nothing, litteraly nothing bothered you. You didn't mind being picked up, you tolerated the endless amounts of pets and selfis and snaps I took of you. You always slept on your back with your belly up and just take up a portion of the floor lol. You hated beef but loved chicken. You always asked me to turn on the water fountain when you wanted a drink or to open my window to either lay by and to feel the breeze and to go out to chill on the roof haha. You and your sister having a love hate relationship lol. You'd be fighting 1 moment and the next moment you both sleeping together. We took her to see you. She was so calm. She sniffed you and she was just so quiet. Just looking at you then quietly went back into the carrier. She understood that you won't be coming back home. I know she misses you. We all do. I wish I could bring you back and I hate I don't have that power. I forever hope to meet you again in jannahI love you Apollo 💔