A letter from May 20, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Dear FutureMe, ....umm. as usual I'm crying..yeah ...umm. not cause of a boy this time just partly. As I write this I'm sad and crying cause well everything I've ever feared came true ... yeah. I'm not an engineer,I haven't talked to you know who in like two months now...I'm doing biology yayyy...lol. and most of all...I miss dad. I have 3000 credit for rent...ummmy stomach is getting bigger..I have two carried courses...ma and PHYSICS...um...I'm unproductive, probably carrying those courses again...I well, did something with some one else....I'm not prepared for my two papers day and tomorrow. And most of all I'm tired..I'm listening to "not about angels". I hate my room sometimes cause I pretend alot... cause I try to be heard but sometimes well most of the time my voice is just some other noise not heard. It's not that bad tho..it's just something occasions. I miss him and I want to get him back,but how😅lol . Well that's me today. I genuinely hope you're happy and fine...and atleast if not an engineer...you're with him... Love you....sad me. I'm sorry if I'm the reason you're maybe not doing okay at this point in time ....I'm tired and trying 😞😔