A letter from May 19, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Now I'm very tired and my spirit is down, I feel like I'm not good enough at anything, I have 3 subjects under 8.0 and only 1 more subject and I'll be gone, I don't know how much more I'll get. But I'm mentally prepared because I really looked forward to the first semester and was really disappointed, so I'm mentally prepared. This year is so bad, people are worried that their scores won't be enough for 9.0, but I'm worried that 8.0 is hard to say, and I'm also reasonable, but 4.5 is really scary, what a stupid person, it's so scary . I used to be very excellent, not that I was never excellent, I just clung to others to gain fame and fortune. I never really tried and had no achievements. I am so bad, now I sit here writing with such heartache, no I said I was good, only 8.6 .I'm like crazy, I remember that if I was sure I would get about 8 points right, but I got 6.8. That's good, the test was probably correct but it was completely wrong. why is my life so dark????. I can't raise my head anymore, you idiot