A letter from May 18, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Hey Cass! By this time you are a 4th year student in her 2nd semester, about to graduate. Done with 100 nights, done with her last garland ceremony and done with her final examinations and revalida. You are just completing her cases and duty hours. You are doing it, you are making it, and you cannot believe how fast time flies by. Because as a 3rd year student who is currently studying the EENT conditions for the MS finals, nostalgia is the ***** of me. I am really emotional rn so thats why I am writing rn. MS finals will be on Wednesday and i still have 15k balance on my tuition. Mama said not to worry and to stop overthinking but I cant seem to stop grieving over the life of no financial constraints and worries. i envy my classmates and friends whose only concern is to pass. i have so much after finals laags planned because i always say yes and my fomo is ******* me. i need 1500 more for core and samgyup with friends. idk what to do. i feel so bad for mama. pero i was so glad when ate ed offered to let me go home for a day to surprise mama on her bday. def a core memory. <33 i hope everything is going well on ur end. how is the family? nanay? tatay? your cousins? mama? are u healthy? still running? still love the same things? did u move out? earlier, i told diana i cant move out sa mandani because i cannot afford it. but she said we can try 2nd sem of 4th year because the tuition is lesser. she said she doesnt want to move out without me and i felt my heart melt. i dont deserve nice friends. i wanna cry. i hope nicky is okay. i hope u have plans for ur future now that graduation is coming near. i received ur letter last march and wasnt able to respond because i always tend to forget. after this, get a sweet treat and drink water for the sake of ur past self hehe. i hope u learned to love urself na and really stopped those cuts!! gamay nalang antos!! Love you, Cassandra Ericka Olson, PhRN, USRN !!!!