A letter from May 17, 2025

hi me !! happy 21st birthday omgggg !!! i hope we are doing really really well, hopefully a lot better than we are now. currently, we are crying about a boy ofc😭😭maybe you’ll remember p****. he was really sweet at first, he seemed like he was sent by God. but the second he found someone better than us he dipped, in a really cruel way too. right now i just feel really sad, im not good enough. i can’t talk to people, ive learned. im too quiet and people don’t like that. im really sorry im doing this to us im just feeling really small right now. i hope by my 21st birthday i feel better about myself and maybe someone even likes me the way i am? if not that’s okay too!! maybe by then it still wont be the right time but wtvvvv🙄are we still working at nothing bundt cakesss ??? who cares back to business, let’s remember our prayer in case we forgot: Dear God, heal my heart in the places where I feel not enough.
 Remind me I am not too much. Not too awkward. Not too soft.
 I was made this way on purpose — with love, with care, with intention. i really hope one day i find someone who just likes me, and won’t leave the second they find someone easier. that’s such a ****** feeling. but if God wants someone in my life i truly believe he will put them there when the time is right. i had a guard up after i***, but i let it down for p****. it was too late tho, he gave up really quickly. i really liked him but maybe he’ll come back and we can really try this time? IDK !!!! the guard will remain up for a while now, i know i fall for people too fast. i love being in love, and people take advantage of that, maybe because they like the attention. maybe they just needed to feel loved even for a little. regardless i will NOT stop !!!! i love making people feel loved and i hope WEE are still like that🤭 happy 21st birthday !!!! i hope things are better by then🫶🏼🖤