A letter from May 17th, 2025

it might seem unimportant to write about ur problems as they seem so insignificant but it truly makes it better I sound like the average therapist but it really does help even crying could be the best solutionwhen I think back to 2020 all I can say is I don't even want to rememberidk what I was doing I mean I was and still am a child but I really messed up and yet I can't tell anyone cuz it's so bad well I didn't get pregnant or anything reacted to thatsee this is why I don't write it's just so insignificant, but it really did ruin my life,I used to think my relationship with my mom would neverreciver, we would have this tension at all times sometimes I feel like out of all my swings I'm the one that aged her although she would never admit that now , me and her would cry every night but we would never communicate, maybe that's why I feel icky every time I see her talk with my younger brother after they fight, but now it's like exactly how I hoped it would be while crying at night, I can't pass a day without hugging her, I can't remember the last time we fought and there is absolutely no tension between us, she often says she is grateful for me and my brother cuz we never go against her and we never tell her no or make her uncomfortable, it's like a dream, it's such a drastic difference sometimes I wonder when did it change and how cuz it really felt like a light switch yet it was a comfortable change, I was in the wrong in the start but that doesn't mean mom was always right, and we didn't solve the problem buy we both moved on from it, I don't think she thinks about it anymore, the disgusting daughter that she used to have is now the cute innocent young and childish daughter that she is too scared to let out into the real world, I can't go walk in the streets alone and if I go to the store on the same street as our house she watcha me from the balcony but ig she is just worried about me I'm just 14 u know so I can gloss over that just fine,next year she will have to let me go out cuz I'll start taking lessons outside instead if private and I'll be forced to go to school at least twice a week but I guess that's pretty stable is ound so spoiled rn but where I live it's not commen to go to school the whole week since we don't get graded on it except the rules have changed a bit and now I have to somewhat atteend so yea, I went do off topic so I'll just end Thai here ba bye