A letter from May 16, 2025

Dear FutureMe, This month in May 16, 2025. I noticed some changes from my parents, It broke my heart because they were very sweet to each other, By the way I'm 15 years old, their daughter. They've been sweet to me because I was the only girl in my siblings and I am the youngest. I've never been distanced with my parents, I was close to them and they're lovely and very hard-working parents. I have 3 grown up brothers who still lives with us. I can see how my parents are having a hard time, but I don't know how to help, both financially and physically. They're always exhausted. And all I can do was watch. At this age, I'm just thinking to myself, I wish to have work and give them an easy time. What i mean by changes was...One morning I was in bed, I woke up and I heard them arguing, their voices wokes me up. I don't know if this was meant for me to hear but all I could do was pretend to sleep and stay still to my position and just listen. I heard my mom crying...I have no idea what they were arguing about. But at that moment, I just felt like my fear is coming...my dad tried to comfort and explain calmly, my mom wasn't saying anything. And then after that my dad apologizes and i heard my dad give him a kiss. I noticed my dad had changed into a short-temper person, he wasn't like that before, he's very bright and lovely. Since I'm grown up now, I just seen myself distancing to my parents and keeping myself distracted and not be bothered by the situation, but in reality whenever I'm alone I can't stop thinking about my parents and our family, everything, everyone. I just start to burst out, I badly want to tell someone about what i feel, and say everything whats inside me, I want to go somewhere far and cry. I don't even know now if my parents are just pretending to be sweet in front of us, everytime they act sweet I would just look into their eyes and see if they're real or they're just forcing it. Well I'm not a kid anymore, I can sense it, I can see it. My brothers doesn't seem to care, they're grown up and have their own mind and business, but that's not how I am. As a girl, i just have the softest heart, I will cry easily, I will feel emotional, it will make me overthink. My message for parents who's reading this, please give the best to your kids...explain everything to them. Don't make them overthink, they might assume something is wrong and keep them to themselves and cry. (My English isn't good, sorry but I just really want to express what I feel right now.)