A letter from May 15, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Today 05/15/25, I am sitting in Econ class, blasting Lana Del Rey in my airpods in order to avoid hearing my ex friends convos and annoying laughs. I just read the note I wrote 6 months ago. 6 months ago, I was feeling hopeless after being denied to major scholarships. I was burnout and stressed. Currently right now, we finished doing all the academic items. 6 months ago I did not think I was going to survive. But you did. You made it! Here's some stuff that happened. You continued applying to major scholarships and you were denied to each one of them. Your gpa rank fell a bit. You were denied to dreams school, Stanford University. You cried a lot the night you found out. It's okay! You can always attend there for medical school. But now you are going to a good school in another city. You will be spending 4 years away from home! That has always been our dream. Things at home haven't changed. Despite all your achievements, my parents are proud of me. They still manage to find the bad things about me. At the end of the day, I learned no matter what I do, I will never be enough to them. Our parents somehow glorify our brother despite all the stuff he do such as failing Algebra 1 or disrespecting them. I hope once I leave for college, they realize the way they parent us was wrong. I hope my brother feels the pressure of being the one that everyone depends on but has no one to depend on. Just so he feels how I felt. I am still with my bf. We went through some stuff but we kinda talked about it. Also I decided for our mental well being that I would stopped going through his account. I still love him but its just his friends that influence him. I hope by the time you are reading this he stopped being friends with them. I hope he kept his promise of visiting us every weekend even though we find be 3 hours away from each other. Anyways, there is only 2 weeks left of school. Next week is Senior event stuff like Senior Signing Day. Graduation is June 1st. Also I got a job. I started working at JD on May 6. Yesterday was my fourth day working and today you are working. I don't know how I feel about work. It's weird because I didn't get the proper training I expected in a job. Also you started talking to an old friend. It was nice talking to him. I really missed talking to him. Can't believe I had to stop talking to him because my bf was jealous. I know by the time you read this, our freshmen year of college will be concluding. I hope you enjoyed it! I hope we did our best and I want you to continue doing your best. I'm proud of myself. I survive high school despite all the things that happened. I know I'm still feeling a bit burnout but I really hope we did our best. I really want to accomplish my goal. (Becoming a doctor.) Anyways I hope you are doing good future me! and Good Luck!