A letter from May 14, 2025

Dear Future Victor, Listen, nothing as change as I'm writing this letter. I'm emotionally & Spiritually drained, physically broken 💔, financially empty and mentally stressed. Can you see I'm living a good life? Haha 😆 Even the girl I'm dating that's providing me warmth stopped immediately cause I asked her. Now, I can feel how cold this world is, I can feel the coldness in abyss. I hate living in illusion and with my recent Godly insights, all Illusion has been stripped off. I'm truly alone, no messages, no hope or anything, no friend and no acquaintance. If I can get out from this abyss, if I truly emerge, even if the whole world burns, I'll stand at the top and enjoy the beauty chaos brings. God! Hmm, growing up, I have always believed I have a loving father who's guiding me, all I have to do is listen to him and everything will be fine. Can't even believe I'm abandoned in heaven and earth, then descend into the abyss alone. If I can get out of here, no one should be blame me from what I'll become. It was never my fault!