A letter from May 10th, 2025

Dear FutureMe,
Looking back after 43 years, I regretted  living my life to please people,  
I regretted  focusing more on people validation 
I regretted  always seeking people's validation 
I regretted putting the need of others before mine
I regretted following the  societal rules and expectations to the letters
I regretted  Seeking love from others rather than myself 
I regretted saying more YES than NO
I regretted that I was unable to build the courage to take risks 
I regretted always being the good girl 
I regretted not realising  on time that I wasn't in control of my own life.
I hate the patriarchy foundation and society that shrink me into  self denier 
I hate  the fact that am  only able to see through all these after 43 years on earth and now it feels like I have not much time, tools to right all the wrongs
Am not hanging up yet, am still hopeful but I can clearly see the harsh reality of today and I can't help but wonder what if................