A letter from May 08, 2025

Dear Future Me, Congratulations on your biggest achievement yet! You should take a moment and be proud of yourself and all that you have accomplished. You and I both know if you were to have thought to yourself several years ago. Where will I be in 2026? You would have never in a million years thought or even guessed that you would be achieving your Associates degree in Nursing and pursing a career and goals for yourself along with for your two precious daughters. Not only have you achieved your education goals that you set for yourself. You are setting lifelong relationship goals for yourself. You have learned what a "true friend" is and you have eliminated all those whom are toxic to you even though you never thought that you would have the courage or faith in yourself to remove those around you that you believed to be a "friend." You have continued to learn how to communicate with friends and family in a positive manner. As we know you will always have a weak point of wanting to always please others by this point you have started to realize that "YOU" come first and that "YOU" need to be happy in order for anyone else around you to be happy. Those who do not support that happiness that you give to yourself are not worth your time. In addition to learning how to communicate with your friends, you have continued to strive for a very healthy marriage with your husband. Which who would have thought that by the time that you are reading this, you and your husband would be celebrating over 10+ years together. When you think back to your first marriage, you never thought for a second that you would find "true love" outside of that hell of a relationship but here you are making history and representing happiness and love to your daughters. Do not ever forget why you started this entire journey though.. At one point, you were at the lowest point of your life and you thought that you did not have any reason to continue to grow yourself and become who "YOU" wanted to be. You let friends, family, former relationships and others doubt yourself to believe that you would never amount to anything other than what they wanted you to be. As much as it hurts you know that the day that you lost your father is the day that you woke up and realized that the life you were living was not what "YOU" wanted and you needed to do more. Watching your father live his life in what was misery with someone who did not truly love or support him, you found in your heart that you did not want that kind of relationship for yourself and you chose to end that. Good for you! Do not ever let anyone tell you otherwise, you know there are others out there that blame you for your first marriage falling apart and all the trauma your oldest daughter went through because of your poor choices. But.. you learned. You made improvements and here you are being a tremendous mother and doing all the right things that you were capable of doing! Dad is proud of you and all that you have achieved! He is watching over you and could not be more proud of the woman that you have become. You are an amazing mother, wife and nurse! Keep on going and prove all those who thought and probably still do less of you because you are UNSTOPABLE!