A letter from May 06, 2025

Dear Future Me, During this very moment of development, reflective thinking, and faith. I'm writing to remind you of who you are and your strengths. I'm trying my hardest to become the guy I want to be for myself, the people I care about, and the future I think about, even though life isn't perfect right now. Right now, I keep a lot of trust in my heart. I want to develop, experience serious love, live a life of meaning, and follow my calling. But I also have some fear, both of failing and of not being enough, of missing my goals. However, I push into it with hope and drive. My goals are big to teach young people, to be a powerful coach and mentor, to build a life with the woman I love, and to be someone my family is proud of. My goal is to keep becoming the best version possible of myself, with no shortcuts, only growth. I get frustrated sometimes. frustrated with expectations, pressure, and time. But I'm happy even in those circumstances. My girlfriend's smile, spending time with my family, laughing with friends, and the drive to improve are all places where I find it. I am being shaped by a lot of love, hunger, gratitude, pressure, and energy. I live in a world that seems to be moving quickly; everything is rushing, including media, news, and technology. In Oklahoma, individuals are attempting to find confidence, balance, and calm in a world that sometimes feels hectic. Right now, protecting the people I care about and being loyal to who I am are what really matter to me. The world outside can be loud, but I’m learning to find calm inside. I currently use social media, my laptop, and my phone for school, communication, and creativity. Instagram, emails, Google Docs, and music that keeps me going are how I remain in connection. What's my current favorite song? It depends on how I'm feeling, but I need something that drives me and speaks to my heart. Which film is my favorite? Friday is a great movie that always makes me laugh and takes me back to younger days. When I can, I still play video games because it gives me the feeling of escape and relaxation. I find peace in my activities. I enjoy swimming, shopping, hanging out with friends, and playing video games. I love my Frenchie, Dior; he is a member of the family and not just a pet. Also, for running track, I'm challenging myself to become a stronger guy and athlete. I'm focusing on developing my coaching and teaching career because I feel that helping people succeed is my calling. My current role is that of a young man attempting to find his own path, a teammate, a leader, and a student. I hope to be coaching, mentoring, and giving confidence to children who need someone to believe in them in a year. I want my purpose to be my "job." Without the people that guided me, I wouldn't be here today. My Uncle P was a true man, a mentor, and someone who taught me how to lead with love and strength. My big sister is a hero, and she has no idea how much I respect her. Shalise, my girlfriend, keeps me centered, holds my heart, and motivates me to improve every day. My motivation comes from her love. The voices I hear in movies, books, or music serve as a reminder that I'm not walking this path alone. When I need to remind myself of who I am, they speak to my heart. I hope you're still connected if you're reading this. I hope you don't forget where you came from or the reason you began. Keep your focus. Keep your heart intact. Respect God. Continue to show love to those who have stood by you. Continue to be proud of your younger self. I hope to have graduated or be close to doing so in a year. I want to work as a coach, start a family with Shalise, and possibly even move in together. I want to be around by loving people, being motivated, and being in good health. I want to continue doing what I was meant to do, which is to inspire people, be present, and remain honest. Don't let fear stop you, future me. Keep your faith solid through setbacks. You've come a long way already. Continue to show up. Keep up the good work. Continue being who you are; that's enough. It's time for you to fully realize the glory that lies within you. This serves as a reminder that you are strong. You deserve it. This is what you were made for. With love, Lamon