A letter from May 06, 2025

Dear Me, Today marks a year since that night in Wellington with him. You know who I'm talking about. At the time of writing, it's the 6th of May 2025. You’ve been through a lot emotionally with this connection, and I want to start by saying: I’m grateful for how far you’ve come. There was a time when you felt tangled in your feelings for him, uncertain about what was real and what was wishful thinking. But you’re not in that space anymore. You’ve made peace with the fact that things have changed — not because you did something wrong, but because people grow, shift, and reveal themselves over time. You’re no longer trying to preserve a version of the friendship that no longer exists. The comfort you once found in the daily closeness is gone, and that’s okay. You’re not clinging, you’re observing. You’re seeing him clearly for who he is now, not who he was, or who you hoped he could be. And you’ve reclaimed your power in that. You’ve been honest with yourself: yes, there were feelings. Yes, you got caught up. Yes, you saw potential. But now you know that emotional attraction without emotional availability isn’t a gift — it’s a trap. And you’re walking right past it. You don’t need him to be “your person.” In fact, you don’t need anyone to fill that role. You are your own anchor. The richness of your friendships with others shows that love, connection, and presence don’t have to come with confusion or compromise. You’ve been manifesting what you want, not through control, but through alignment. The right people are coming to you because you’re living more authentically and choosing clarity over chaos. Keep doing that. He may even be one of the "right people" again by now. At the moment, he's not -- but so what? You've had friends do that sort of thing before. Ebs and flows, etc. If he DID turn out to be someone who can't show up in the way you need — emotionally honest, consistent, respectful — let that be what it is. No drama. No bitterness. Just truth. You’re not afraid of people leaving anymore. You’re afraid of staying in situations that don’t honor your worth. And you don’t have to do that anymore. So take a breath, and let yourself be grateful. You’ve stepped into your own emotional sovereignty. You’re not the person who needed his validation. You’re the person who knows who they are — and who is already becoming who they want to be. With love, Me