A letter from May 05, 2025

Dear FutureMe, I've been putting this off for a while now. I'm at work, uncomfortable and tired from my period. I keep thinking if I was happy a year ago. Then how happy I can be from a year from now. I'm open to all possibilities. As I am writing this, it has been nearly two months since Adrian's *****, and I have so many questions I'll never get answers too. I can just reflect. Christine, I know you are a very introspective person. You love to romanticize, daydream, ruminate, rewrite what happen in the relationship you had with Adrian. I know you want to tell him about this new salad you really like, make summer plans, build the garden and live an average day with him, but you can't. It's over. It's been over. This man you loved was an alcoholic and abusive to you. Stop worrying about forgetting him. Every day you are a little bit stronger and starting to romanticize your own dreams. This is exciting. I hope in the next four months the following happens. 1. Big credit card is paid off. 2. Down 20 lbs. (The time in the gym is showing!!!) 3. I finish and submit my painting to the MOCA. 4. Make each kids their own decorate letter and coloring book. 5. Make the small painting for sale. 6. I have printed photos, put them in an album, and safely stored everything. 7.Scrapbook my memory box. (This might last till the fall) Thats a lot. I got it! I hope it's easier on the other side.