A letter from Apr 30, 2025

How is resultsPlus looking? Ik ur disappointed asf. -5 days for AS Dear FutureMe on results day, hello.... its me just 5 days before AS starts Honestly idk im not ready. I dont think I can get 4As def not but I had rly rly big dreams when I started ALs last yr. I guess some stuff… got in the way if u rmr….. but still I worked. not all day every day but all I did was study. But now I feel like the way I studied was not at all effective. I still hv got 100+ pprs to complete and I def cant do everything in these 5 days wtf?? My delusional ***. Like I focused too much on completing theory I spend wayyy more time on it like I rmr I covered the syllabus like 1 week before mocks. Btw mocks went sm better than I expected….I thought ill **** up but uk I didnt. BECAUSE LAWD THE PAPERS WERE ****** AF LIKE A BABY CD DO IT. Yh I studied but I dont give a **** about mocks. I shdnt hv even written it…what a waste of my precious time…. AS is easy I could’ve done so much better :( and now im out of time…. I even downloaded red note today. uk in case of leaks… Ill show u a detailed breakdown of how I think my 11 pprs wd go P1: havent one much past papers but its easy ig can get full ums if I don’t make silly mistakes P2: easy but not confident. In some pprs I cdnt solve some questions but this is also rly easy to get marks. If only I had more time… S1: idk I do great on some pprs bad on others. Idkkkkk how it’ll be on this session. I need to grind more Qs M1: easy but not confident. I lose a hella lot of marks. Like idk how to explain it….it depends I js hv to do more qps F1: easy I guess… a bit confident but if one single question gets confusing/hard im over. The grade boundaries are soooo high so im scared M2: eh idk I havent touched an M2 ppr in ages….. in the last ppr I did well but thats cz it was a covid ppr so it was easy af I threw away m2 for now to focus on others. Im scared tho. Phy6 ppr 2: A LITERAL MESS I CANNOT. No matter how much I studied, how much pprs I went thru I still cant get any **** right. Im averaging Ds bro. Like imagine getting a D and the look on my parents’ face 😭 im so cooked rn for physics im about to give up. NO I dont give up. I never give up. I’ll do what I can and we’ll see. Phy6 ppr 1: better than paper 2 but THIS IS ALSO ****. IM CRASHING OUT. Im 100% sure im gonna **** up. Phy6 ppr3: ……..idk. mixed feelings. It’s either gonna be hella ez or the other way around. IT ppr 1: still havent done one single past paper 😀 Ig I got overconfident after mocks….. IT ppr2: same w this… havent done a single pp yet. Ughhhhhhhh I hv sm to dooooo…… I kinda hv a feeling IT is gonna be hard cz this is the first session after the tb got released….and I havent gone thru the whole of the tb yet. I dont hv time for this shi mn. I hv to go study now…..hmmm maybe I’ll focus on IT now… I shd also make a 5 day plan. I mean 4 day plan oh **** no 3 days…. WHAT No No No WILL I FAIL????? DID I FAIL???????? 😭 At least plsss tell me u got As for maths, IT, (furthermaths?) PLEASE I CANT BE THAT MUCH OF A PIECE OF ****. Anyways it is what it is. You’ve got every right to blame me. It’s me. Not u. I should’ve completed my past papers on time w/o ******* around. And I should’ve listened to my parents’ advice (ukw). Im a failure. But did we cook tho? There’s a 0.000001% chance of that happening but idk. Stop being delusional girl. But if we did cheers to us ig. Anybody who reads this feel free to email me: ensleyyenald@gmail.com (spam email not my real name)