A letter from April 29th, 2025

Dear FutureMe, im wishing you a happy birthday , youre  20 now , wow , just yesterday you truned 19 wdym a year from now youre gonna be 20. I wanna start by saying the first day of being 19 was hell , it started out good and i dont want you to remember this moment cause it really hurted you but all im gonna say is i hope you never get to experience this and i dont want to remind you of this and to make you sad , cause ik it is your birthday but it really hurted me so i had to mention it, its not the first time this happened but i hope it will be the last.I wish you a year filled with Happiness , Love , Success and most of all , In Sha Allah youre iman grew stronger because in the end that is what is the most important thing in this dunya . I also hope that 19 was good to you and only hope that every year gets better and better , i hope youre doing good in college too , i hope it is going wonderful.In this life you will get tested but do not let these temporary tests get a hold of your life, fight them, overcome them , take them as lessons to grow as a person and in deen , be better , for your mother if not anyone else , because she deserves more than anything this dunya can give her and i hope , IN SHA ALLAH ALLAH SWT will give it to her , everything she endured in this life , every tear she shed i hope they will open the gates to Jannah and for my father who was the reason she shed those tears and who was the reason i also shed tears i hope and i wish that our tears will haunt him forever , i hope everytime he goes to sleep he wont rest well , i hope he will see our faces especially my mothers face and guilt will fill him , regret will consume his soul and then right there and right then , he will realize what he did and what he said but it is gonna be late then and he cant do anything to undo it. The words he said to my mother tonight , someone who makes his family food to eat , does their laundry , cleans the house and provides him clean clothes and everything , IN SHA ALLAH those words , awful words that left his mouth tonight , if not in this dunya ,the other will eat him out and shame him and everything but most of all , may he feel that shame , guilt in front of his creator ALLAH SWT for he has made one of his other creation cry , has shrinked her heart from all the awful things he did for all th times he hit her , i hope he will pay for them all.As for the slap he gave to me tonight i hope that slap will slap him back so hard that he will realize what he had done but by then it would be late.Im sorry to have brought this up to you and i dont know how you will feel about this, but i have never hated him more than tonight.Happy 20th birthday hope you are having fun and i hope you get this letter.
LOVE YOUR FUTURE SELF
ERZA2025!!!!!