A letter from Apr 28, 2025

Dear Diary, today, i enjoyed this day. we did eat sa jollibee and yap the whole day. today was a long day for me kaya pag ka uwi ko sa house natulog ako and nagising ako past 9 pm na. 1 am na ngayon, i still think of him. it's weird kasi you miss people in random days like this. may makita lang akong tiktok na it reminds me of him, nasasad ako bigla. i am weird talaga, di ko na magets sarili ko. to be honest okay naman na talaga ako pero baka it's true nga na we can't really forget the person. how was he na kaya? parang hindi na ako pumapasok sa utak niya? did he still think of me sometimes? i wish i know. hirap pala maiwan sa ere without closure, without proper goodbye, and bigla nalang natapos. hindi ako makausad. tanga ko sometimes grabe. sana lord iniisip niya na may inargabyado siyang hot girl years ago. sana nagbreak sila. sana lokohin din siya. ayoko naman na talaga bumalik don. it's just that feel ko makakausad ako if makakausap ko siya kahit one day lang. masabi ko lahat ng gusto ko sabihin at marinig lahat ng pag amin at pagpapanggap. i still need a closure. i want us to be friends???? ew nahhh! but kasii i really like his humor grabe gets na gets niya ako talaga. kasi u know what, thosw guys na nagmmsg sakin grabe sobrang hindi makagets ng sarcasm ko. kung siya yon, he knows exactly what to do and say. gets na gets niya ako. too sad, we both young and dumb pa non. i want to meet a guy na ganon yung humor. someone who will not get offended of me. lord bigyan mo ko basta wag cheater. if ever he msg me, i'm not sure kung rreplyan ko. pag naaalala ko kasi yung time na he ignored me and left me hanging, napipikon ako. so baka wag na nga siguro. tanga na ko times two pag nagkataon. maybe i should left everything behind. time to burry all those good times. :)