A letter from Apr 20, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Well I received a letter today from 4 years ago. About to walk into church. It was very surprising and I forgot I wrote it. Maybe you’ll forget about this one. I am currently seeking therapy. I have a lot of problems mentally. I have been drinking every day since I’ve been back from deployment. It’s part of why I’ve lost friendships and relationships. I am trying to become happy again. It feels as if my life is a series of unfortunate events. I want to get better. I turned 23 today. Went to church for the first time in awhile. It was good I’m glad I went. I am working on loving myself. It’s hard. I am hard to love. I have less than a year to decide if I’m getting out of the navy or re enlisting. I honestly don’t know what to do. And I don’t want to regret my decision. So I hope what ever you chose you don’t regret. And know that everything happens for a reason and that it will be okay. I love you Trinity and you got this. It will get better. I can’t believe I’ve made it this far to where I am today. So there is hope. And just know you are loved so much.