A letter from Apr 19, 2025

I just got some motivation to write a letter now. I know this sounds pretty dramatic, but I don't even know if I can read this letter in the future or not. I guess I'm writing it so that I could read it if I lived long enough. Tomorrow I have a history exam and I haven't studied anything, but I don't think that it matters. What I want to talk about more is my physical health. A few months ago, exactly on the 19th of February, I got diagnosed with LRTI, or Lower Respiratory Tract Infection. For some reason, no one, especially my parents, have given it any attention so I stopped taking the antibiotics just after 2 days of taking them. I think it can be seen as some sort of revenge, but I'm doing this so that I could deliberately get worse until my parents notice and take me to the doctor, and I think that the first part is working. Currently, I'm suspecting that it has progressed to pneumonia, or at least pleurisy. My current symptoms are fatigue, shortness of breath, headaches, chest pain, abnormal heart beat, coughing, lack of balance, elevated temperature, and probably some other things that I've forgotten. I don't know for how much longer will this continue, but I can't deny that it's extremely painful. I know that I can't complain though since I've brought this to myself. I'm extremely grateful for Gvantsa. So far, she's the only one who helped me and I feel very guilty for pretty much using her as a doctor. If I do pass away soon enough, I hope that she knows that she did her best and that I appreciate that. Actually, I'll tell her that as soon as I send this letter. What's coming later seems pretty scary as well. It seems that summer vacation won't be like last year. We'll go to both Turkey and Tunisia and probably walk a lot, which will probably worsen my health. Aside from that, I'm pretty anxious about my new school next year. I hope that I can take as many pictures as possible with my camera though, I want them to remember me through my album if I do pass away. I don't know what can I talk about more here, so I guess I'll just finish the letter here.