A letter from Apr 18, 2025

Dear Future Joanna, Yup, this is from April 18, 2025 at 3:57 pm. I'm currently sitting at the bench outside HCJC waiting for the mass to end. Grabe ka 'no? Instead na mag simba, nasa labas ka. Mainit e. Right now, while sitting, andaming random thoughts inside my mind. It's like random pieces of puzzle trying to figure out what the whole picture looks if it's completed pero they seem can't figure it out. That's our life right now. Magulo. Gusto ng purpose pero too lazy to do something at once. Speaking of lazyness. That's our number 1 hindrance in all things. I don't know how to overcome it. I always think to have a goal even a short-period goal or madaling goal. Pero bakit ang hirap? Why all of a sudden, I lost interest in doing things even if it's easy to do. I want to be like others. May routine. May hobby. Productive. Pero bakit parang sobrsng hirap. I hope pag nabasa mo 'to may nagbago na sa'tin. Not like now na nakaka suffocate maging useless at parang sloth. Sana once na mabasa mo 'to may nagbago na kahit papano. Please. I don't want to live like this anymore. Ang daming naapektuhan. Yun lang. That's all for now. Goodluck sa journey na'tin.