A letter from Apr 17, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Hi its me it’s you from the past🥱 I’m currently writing this on April 17th 2025 Thursday while sitting on my brand new couch home alone life has been going ok my friends are still Ava and Haleigh like always and I HATE Blair she smells. Samia and Cartlon started dating how cute I guess. Haleigh is dating Tahj and Ngl I have a small crush on Tahj😔 I’m not gonna tell anyone tho that’s something I keep to my self Bella is such a cute baby I can NOT get over here how old is she now FRIM what I’m guessing she’s one now and your 11 or 10 because we’re the last siblings who’s birthday y’all have to celebrate wow. I feel every unloved right now my mom replaced me with Bella and hasn’t even realize she did I told her and she said she wasn’t. Sucks being the middle child I just keep to my self most of the time if not I’m talking/watching Bella wow how boring life can be the same things happen every day. I wake up early get ready get dressed do my hair and I’m out the door I go to school going to breakfast ELA social studies, and religion than going to math. Right now I like my math teacher I don’t know how like that will last. Than I go to lunch than science and than back to math for another hour or so than back ELA than at 2:40 I get picked up and I come hour get dressed into my home clothes and do one of the 3 I get dressed and go on my iPad I get dressed go downstairs and play with Bella Than go on my iPad while watching her or just fall asleep and most of the time it’s the 3rd option I hate my life it’s so boring. I feel like the odd one out I’m taller than most of my classmates and people in my school meaning I just tower over them there’s a girl that’s taller than me in my grade tho I still feel like the odd one put I’m starting to grow taller than my 18 year old sister what the helly. I feel fat I told my mom I want to lose weight she ask “where are you getting these things from” like I’m not getting this from no where home I have really bad self hate and you can’t seem to realize it I don’t wanna be tall nor short I wanna be average height I don’t wanna be fat or skinny I just wanna be a average girl in height and weight why is this so hard to do I’ve stopped sleeping so I don’t grow taller or fatter it’s not working I used to be a average height girl and I was skinny now I’m tall and fat that’s worser than short and fat I have a really big forehead and I cover it up with edges mom always has something to say about my edges yet she doesn’t understand when I’m older I’m gonna do so many things my family is so unsupportive they only believe in what they were taught. I rather be white smelly short and skinny and a supportive family than West Indian tall fat and a unsupportive family my family keeps trying to push me onto a religion I don’t believe I tryed to be Muslim when I was younger but I just don’t understand it what do you mean you want me to follow dumb rules and just believe in a “god” when there’s no proof no type of god or Jesus ever walked the earth it’s Christian‘s words against no real evidence judt some random old book like as many chapters talking about “god” or Jesus” I don’t believe in a religion I don’t believe in anyone i’m not an atheist non a Christian I’m just a person who wants to live there life freely and not worrying about oh I’m gonna go to hell or heaven because I did this and not that like cmon. Anyways I don’t really had anything else to say but some questions. Did we get that new iPad? Do things be better do we fianlly find a religion or belive in something beyond the solar system? That’s it bye.